After much thought, I came up with the following conclusion in the events gone by and events that may come:
Everything is just a game. You can play the game, let the game play you or you can end the fucking game.
Sometimes you can't end the game nor do you want to, doing so is perhaps sad and wasteful... But if you can't play the game anymore, you'll have to end it and play another one... perhaps, and just perhaps, the new one will be a better one.
A saying comes to mind: "If the old won't go, the new won't come". This is exactly my view.
But what if you feel current game is the best one for you and ending the game is simply a big shame? - you just feel the game has so much potential. Alas... but sometimes, the game is just unplayable, things just impede successful game play, often the key factors.
Take whatever I say in whatever context it may be. I just hope you understand what I say. If the game is unplayable, don't continue as it'll be bring more pain and trouble for you. Don't believe me, just do it, I'll love to see how far you can go and maybe, just maybe you'll prove me wrong. But if you don't want to test my theory, then end it for a new game will arise. But what if it don't? Yep, complex isn't it.
Hahaha... Sudden rush of de ja vu... Damn, this is scary. Ok, ponder my view and best wishes to whatever game you play. You play it and win, you let it play you and suffer or you end it and find something better to play - Whatever happens, do it honestly, ethically and persistently and you won't regret it because regret... it will hurt you deeply and in hindsight, you will sadden at what a beautiful and wonderful game it could have become. You'll wonder why - But there won't be an answer for you.
Sometimes, I pity myself for being able to rationalise about everything... If only those rationalised "theories" can be more applicable to me... Perhaps as one matures, one will look at things in life as something more of a "game" but for a lack of knowledge, experience and wisedom, it will have to suffice. One look forward to a journey of self discovery.