Sunday, December 7, 2008

Pragmatism at Its Peak

"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."

We'll never learn from history will we?

But we must.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Innocent Smile

So many of us are broken in one way or another. As a result, we're incapable of giving a smile that is like a newborn's.

An innocent smile. A beautiful smile. Alas, what a shame... If only...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Get Smart

Just finished watching "Get Smart" the movie. Brilliant, bit ordinary true but fun nonetheless and invoked some memories.

I used to watch Get Smart when I was back in China and it was a great show. Never knew what it was called until a while back and man, it brought back smiles. What a legendary series!

It's a sad shame there's few things like that these days. All these Idol and Big Brother crap... I missed the wit in television series. The closest that I can find is "Boston Legal", a fabulous and equally amazing series. Brilliant acting and scripting. And that's coming to an end... What a shame..

Wit, what an invaluable trait...

Monday, September 29, 2008


They are just HOT.

For images of these gorgeous girls, click here.

Hot, just hot. I think I'm in love.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Regret and Life

"Every man I meet is in some way my superior"
A somewhat politically incorrect/sexist quote in the modern world. But as an individual, I strongly believe in the idea behind it. We can never learn enough after all.

Perhaps one of the most enjoyable activities when socialising with a person is listening and learning, well, if the person is interesting/smart enough. It's always humbling to recognise something in that person which you could take away for use in the future.

A recent discussion with a smart and capable individual made me ponder a critical issue in our life: regret.

We all regret something in our life and we feel we could have done that something better. And often, we ask ourselves the all important question of why? Why did we make that decision?

According to wikipedia, regret is defined as an intelligent (and/or emotional) dislike for personal past acts and behaviors. Regret is often felt when someone feels sadness, shame, embarrassment or guilt after committing an action or actions that the person later wishes that he or she had not done. Regret can describe not only the dislike for an action that has been committed, but also, importantly, regret of inaction. Many people find themselves wishing that they had done something in a past situation.

Moreover, it seems that there are two forms of regret: 1) For things that we have done and 2) For things that we have not done. Perhaps this is best illustrated by the following quote:
"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."
In this view, regret can be caused by action or inaction. Nonetheless, a decision has to had happen because the person can regret about whether they will regret the past action or past inactions. It would also be fair to say that a regrettable decision had to be made based on some kind of ground. In this regards, we can say two things: 1) The ground or basis for a decision comes from the heart/gut/mind 2) From existing circumstances. Furthermore, according to regret theory, the fear of regret itself can play a large role in dissuading or motivating someone to do something.

So as weird/complex as this speculation may sound, it screams something obvious and that is whatever made us made a regrettable decision was not solid and possibly hastened by the actual fear of future regret itself. What I am perhaps truly confused about is WHY sometimes we make a decision that we regret, especially if a decision has ENORMOUS repercussions on our life and its direction.

Could it possible be a lack of knowledge, lack of foresight, lack of planning or all three?

But could it be something else?

Let me clarify. When we make a decision, that decision could be for 1) matters of ones life such as job, education etc. or 2) matters of the heart. For 1), the reasons that caused us to make regrettable decisions can be surprisingly obvious as I have mentioned previously. But for 2), matters of the heart may be less so? By logic, you would hardly jump into a decision regarding a matter of the heart unless there is a strong motivation to do so right? Of course, it is exactly this point that void the previous sentence because matters of the heart are rarely logical right? I was actually reading an interesting article which mentioned that more than 1/3 of women married would not choose the same spouse 2nd time around. I was absolutely shocked.

So from this person, I felt that I have taken something away and in immeasurable ways, I thank you.

1) When making a decision for anything, ensure it is based on logic. Love is the opiate of the masses and logic is the cure. If you ever have regret, you can always fall back on logic but never that heart jumping, warm, tingling feeling. Fuck that shit. I know I will live to contradict myself but I like my theories.

2) Never trust your gut or heart. Always trust your mind.

3) True love don't exist. Fairy tales are lame and one will only end up hurting oneself.

4) I have grown more cynical of the human species and especially females in particular. It's a shame. I am growing more and more fond of the quote: Shoot now, ask questions later or in this case, hurt others before you get hurt.

5) I admire strong willed, self capable and intellectually gifted females. They are rare and I hope anyone who does command the love of one to fully appreciate what they have.

6) Life is pointless.

Time to wrap up. Here's a nice Paint drawing I did to summarise my points I was going to say something here as well but I can't remember and it's really cold.

Next post, "Love/Dating/Marriage is the opiates of the masses". And I warn anyone who may read my next article, beware. It is going to be highly pessimistic/cynical/ugly in its view and very depressing and can bring on anxiety, headache, fear, sudden coldness leading to possible heart attacks. Reader discretion is advised.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

4 Wealth Cornerstones

I realised that to have real power and finance in life, one should establish a foothold in these 4 cornerstones.
1) Organised Crime: Outrageous? In the past and in the modern times, organised crime can net you more money than a legitmate career, despite the risks and other unpleasant issues. Research shows that organised crime earns billions from their illicit activities. I'm not advocating this but having certain contacts would certainly assist.
2) Government: One should have a position in the government or have solid sources from the government. This will ensure that the law will not intefere with your activities.
3) Land Ownership: The basic need. Having land is a lucrative source of income and it's a guaranteed source of income. You need land because it's secure.
4) Business: Simple, you need a business. Without a business, you'll forever be generating money for other people.
Perhaps I am crazy, but if you think about it, these are the foundations on which people prosper.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Graduation Cognitive Dissonance

Today, I had a somewhat interesting enlightment while contemplating on the train tonight. I may have discovered a new form of post university/colleage post traumatic disorder. I call it "graduation cognitive dissonance (GCD)". This is the period of depression that an individual enter after graduating from their course, whether it be a fear of the wrong choice of degree/career, the fear of hating the degree/career path, the fear of not choosing something that can get you a job.

The syptoms of GCD includes: depression, continuous sighing, non-stop self reflection, envy of engineers, economists, doctors and those job guaranteed smart bastards, rationalisation to convince yourself of how it's too late and how you have other benefits, attempts to relieve pressure(s) exerted on you directly or indirectly, consciously or sub-consciously, existant or non existant. These symptoms are capped off by a numbing sensation in the brain along with a heavy heart. Furthermore, these symptoms are amplified if you hate your current dead end job and if you have many friends who to you is in a similar position but acts like they have not a care in the world.

So, perhaps this is just me or perhaps this applies to alot of people who don't know why they are so sad after graduating. I think this is just me because I am a lame, no life loser, who has a huge and easily bruisable ego and whom personality is so lame and crap... Anyway, I did discover a few solutions that can reduce this disorder.

1) Establish and eliminate sources of GCD. For example, I hate my dead end job so I will try to find a new one.

2) Get in touch with friends who did a similar course and identify possible employment opportunities.

3) Get drunk. Actually no. While it may mitigate your reasoning skills, it does not remove the problem.

4) Find a girl/guy and start become an abusive partner and push them to work harder to support you because you're an official GCD sufferer and has the right to lean on the strong.

5) Create a blog and do what I do, blog randomlessly about random ideas that comes up in your head and hope others will find it ramdomly interesting.

But seriously, I think the best way to get out of this phase is to find a worthwhile employment. According to David McClelland, we have a need for afilliation, achievement and power so find your source of motivation and never give up. It's too late to change your degree so think of the reasons why you did it and work hard in making the best out of it. It will pay off (I'm hoping...) and you will move into a new phase that I have yet to experience and therefore unable to comment.

Anyway, enough blubbering. Still looking forward to my magical event!! And oh yeah, I wanna find a proper web host, any recommendations?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

An Amusing Thought

Have you ever been in a situation where alot of things seems to be resting on the outcome of one event? That is, how the near future of your life will pan out depending on how well the event in questions turns out?

I'm sure all of us has been at crossroads in our lives, where we have to make a decision on where we want to go and how we will go to get there. Of course, some of us do not see life as clearly as that and I'm sure we have our reasons but lets ignore that aspect for one second.

Some may also be thinking, well, you shouldn't have put your eggs in one basket huh? I concur but sometimes, mistakes on my part or circumstances does not allow me to have extra eggs so lets ignore this aspect as well.

I'm in a similar predicament at the moment and I find it amusing. The future of my life seriously depend on this event for the time being and my life can turn out wonderfully if I succeed in this event or it can face more uncertainty and mediocrity if I fail. And I'm not talking about the exams. I have been thinking just how damned hilarious it is... Funny as this is, I do not feel the pressure, perhaps because judgement day has not neared yet.

I'm not sure what else I can say except this is amusing and I just wanted to point it out. If you are curious, I'll make sure I update on exactly what I mean with this post. I will of course, endeavour to make sure I prepare the best I can to succeed. Success and prestige or uncertainty and mediocrity in my life and career rests on how well I perform in this event. I am really looking forward to success and I hope everyone who reads this wish me every luck.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

A Little Less Thought, A Little Less Effort..

And ... Maybe Life Would Be A Bit Sweeter.. For You And Me..

It's been a while since I made my last post. Upon reflection, it seems that I have lost alot of my energy to blog. No longer do I find the activity as enjoyful as I first ventured out into this wonderful territory. I am not sure why but I'm guessing it has something to do with the topic of this post.

Blogging used to be a method of expression for me... Something to write down the thoughts that come to me during each day. It's worked well and I think I've made some nice posts that are insightful and open minded. Of course, some not so but I'd like to think the majority was good.

Therefore I intend to continue. But my life's quite hectic and depressing these days... Let me address some of the events that has been occuring:

1) Good thing. I got my license. Something that will give me freedom but it's a double edged sword I think. It also signifies it's time for me to spread my own wings after years of peace under that of my parents.

2) Soon to graduate. As I approach the near end of my university studies, it signifies entering the rat race. The pressure is quite frustrating. On one hand, I need to get out of my current part time job and on the other, I need to find a job that's related to my degree within a decent timeframe. The desire not to fail and show that I can do people proud is overwhelming. Everytime I think about going back to the part time job, I get a dreaded feeling. I realise that I despise that workplace and large majority of the people, especially the colleagues. Therefore, the need to get out is ever mounting. I just can't wait to get the hell out even if it means finding a job not relating to my degree. With something that can contribute to my experience in an office environment, I can always work up just as long as I get out. Job hunting sucks though... So many applications, so many deadlines, so many questions. Be nice to be born rich huh lol...

3) A somewhat unnatural desire to get fit. I've began a gradual exercise regime of jogging and basketball along with usual body toning stuff. No idea why but this is quite unlike before, it just came out of nowhere. This point reinforces point two in that I need to get the fuck out of the fast food joint since working there = dodgy shifts = bad food = hard scheduling and poor diet. Need to get out....

4) A need to organise and understand finances. This point illustrates my subconscious's desire to take out a mortgage... Share broking, business opportunities, networking blah blah blah... I need to move out. Just a natural desire and something that's also weighing on my mind...

5) The need to get in touch with old acquaintances and catchup...

6) Last exams for my first university degree. Also just in time to celebrate my B-Day right after graduating with the degree. That'll be cool. Need to find out about honours, another crushing thought...

So I'll stop there. Typical stuff, everyone who's 20 must be worrying like me. I feel for you all, I truly do and I give out my sincerest hopes for your endeavors in this length of your life journey. For those who are not worrying, I am scared for you. For those who's gone through it and is go a good path, I envy you so wish me luck to get through this stage well. I realise I've gotten very personal, possibly the most personal post I've made in my blogging life. Ah well, that can't be helped, I needed an outlet to vent, an outlet that can't speak back and tell me you have nothing to worry about. Fools.

On a lighter note, for those of you who are still reading my blog, I apologise for not reading and visiting. I hope you understand. I thought I could go into active modes a few times before but I realise now that it will be impossible until everything I am worrying reaches a stable mode. I did create a Facebook account based on pressure from people and I am curious to see how many friends I can recruit lol, it's like a game. Search my email on my profile and add me :P

Also, I have taken sometime out and looked at a few Blogger templates. I want a minimalistic design and I found a few good ones. Again, when I get some time, I will give my blog a revamped look. I intend to add in some nice sections including Books, Movies and Music. Perhaps you'll find something I like that is to your interest as well :)

Until next time, here's a nice song from the famous Marie Digby: Say It Again and oh, don't think too much like me so SMILE!!!!! ^_^

Monday, May 12, 2008

Microsoft's Password Recovery

Well, something bad happened last night. I wet my bed, something I havn't done in a long time... I think.

But no, I did not. I don't hope to either but I dreamt shitloads about you. No, that's a lie too.

But I'm going to say a truth and that is how great I think Windows One Care service team has become. Just last night, I lost my password for Hotmail and hence Messenger and I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown due to it's importance to me.

I spent precious hours scouring for a possible solution when I should've been researching and came up found wanting. The effort was futile and I was deeply saddened by this. Then I found a great link that allowed me to recover my password through account verification with Windows Live team.

It is as follows:

Another one is as follows:

(Thanks for About)

From these two links, you are able to get support from the Live team, a real life technician who will verify the information you send them who will then send you a password reset link expiring in 3 days.

I got a response easily within 24 hours and was provided with a link to gain access. I found things to be simple and fast despite my initial skepticism. So if you lost your hotmail password, you can recover it through this link. Preferably, make sure you don't lose it in the first place and have a good secret answer that you can write down and hide somewhere.

I just want to thank Aldrin from the Live team for helping me with this effort and say that you've gained a faithful Hotmail supporter for a long time :)

Zai Jian People.

P.S. AskLeo is a load of shit. It's a very outdated site so ignore his advice because this service will give your account back.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

The End

So, I've decided to kill myself.

Actually no. It's something that has not crossed my mind and I'm hoping it'll remain that way. This joke may sounds bad but I can be an ass sometimes and frankly, I care little and little about many things these days.

My life is reaching a crucial stage over the next few months. Soon, I'll be graduating and many things are going to happen at a fast pace. The first is deciding on just what to do. Is it time to look for a job or continue studying? With a job, I am able to take out a mortgage (this is a must before moving out) and move on with life. Though it makes you wonder what's the point when it all ends? I guess the process is much more important than the end right?

Anyway, going off track a bit there... I think it'll be better to find a job and take out a mortgage. This way I can move out and proceed faster towards my life goals whatever they are... Now this is a damned depressing thought... Looking for a proper job... On one hand, I'll be leaving my dreaded workplace but on the other, the depressing thought of being rejected until I find the desired job (if there is one) doesn't make things much more brighter.

Nonetheless, move forward I must. I think once I find a graduate position, I'll see if I can attempt honours part time because it's something that can make me special lol... Another thought... Writing this post makes me feel my options are everywhere. I need to do a mindmap soon...

Anyway, yeah... that's a bit of random rant about my soon to explode life... Definitely a typical life for an average kid. Not as exciting as dealing drugs or being a child soldier...

I'm hoping I'll have something more exciting to rant about next time... Until then, adios my friends. Wish me luck.

P.S. Please don't surprise me. I'm a mundane individual, I long for stability. I don't like betting until I know I have a good chance of succeeding. If I fail, I tend to back away, learn from my mistakes and try again. But when I try again, I hope the situation will have changed enough to give me a better chance of succeeding. Of course, that's very much unlikely so all in all, surprises sucks. I don't change much...

Sunday, April 27, 2008

things girls don't relize

Yeah, the topic was written incorrectly intentionally.

I have alot to rant about including a discussion I had with my staff members regarding their religion, a thought that came into my mind after watching a movie regarding love and then the issue of Tibet. But I'm just going to note them here and write about them later...

On another note, my blog has become less analytical in nature and more diary style. it seems my creative energy has been sapped by time wasting activities... But go with the flow I will.

Oh yeah, I passed my driving test 2 weeks ago, on Mon 8 of April 08. Finally got off my lazy ass lol...

Ok enough ranting for now and just want to post a chain letter I received a few moments ago. Normally, I delete those crap but I'm gonna make a special exception for this one as it might bring a smile or two to the guys and girls. It brought a smile to my lips.

Have fun reading!


Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

The Fruits of My Labour


Actually, no, but I'm just as ecstatic. Ever done something well and right and you just feel so suddenly good? Well I'm feeling it now because I done something that I feel proud of.

I fixed up two of my PC's in 3 days including a new hard drive, total installation of all files, new graphics card tweaking and finally, new game.

I'm not going to make any sense because I've been trying to fix a shutdown/restart error of my laptop for the last hour. The time is 5:12am.

Two things I want to address in this blog/diary note and the main purpose is for me to share information with others facing similar issues to me. If you're reading this, thank me because my work did not come easy. Fuck no.

1) Counter Strike: Source. An interesting game I bought a day ago. Quite different to 1.3 haha and too damn realistic. Fucking grenades don't bounce the same either and damned noobs can't throw flash properly. Kids, you throw the 'nades at the enemy, not your fucking team mate you little turds.

Anyway, I tried to play this game on my low end laptop which had a 945GM Graphics card. Integrated of course. I got a black screen and can't get into the options. So it runs but not good enough. After much research and reading loads of shit, I found only 2 articles which mentioned that Source can be run on this card. Determined to prove this myself, I searched further and asked shitloads of people who mostly abused my card and made fun of my laptop.

Well guess what fuckers, it ran. With new drivers, and the well known Casey's config as well as dropping -dxlevel to 7, it ran biatches. On net with half full map, I got an amazing 10fps average!! You won't believe how much fun I had... So people, you can run source on low end cards and even integrated provided you tweak the settings enough and lowering your -dxlevel to 7. If anyone bumps into this article and want more info, email me.

2) Ever experienced shutdown problems? Or reboot problems? Sometimes it takes you fricking 2 mins to do either?

Well, I did on my laptop again! What a damned headache... I had no idea why so I formatted the shit (it needed that anyway). So it did the same again after a format (along with all new installations...) so I formatted it again. Yeah, I formatted it twice with the second time done after installing everything... You know how painful that is? It's fucking depressing sitting in front of the PC doing that. I now know I'm not the IT type. I get lonely and depressed but then again who don't after playing with 2 PCs non stop for 3 days in a row...

Anyway, the third time round, I decided to declare war. One can't have peace unless one uses force. I should've learned that from WW1. I went on the net again scouring info. about what the problem was. Mainly got loads of old shit about random crap not applicable to modern situations.

But with a few gold nuggets here and there I pieced together a war plan. Firstly, I realised I needed to identify my source of problem. To do that, I needed to access the Event's Manager in CP. With that I was able to see all errors and it showed that one or more of my resources are not unloading their memory properly @ shutdown/restart. It however didn't tell me which one so I followed the error code and found a program (UPHClean) which supposedly unloaded it without me finding out. Unfortunately it was snake medicine and didn't do what it purported. But from it, I was able to find out which program was fucking with me and it was a Toshiba sound program. Dodgy programmers who can't program for shit, they fuck up so it conflicts with my other shit which fucks me up... Fuck.

tvstray.exe you bastard. You know how much misery and pain you've caused me? I hope the programmer goes to hell. So armed with msconfig I disabled the fucker for good. Now it doesn't fuck with me anymore. I'm telling all you processes, fuck with me again and I'll delete you for good. Hear me.

It's late, so tired, sorry for so much expletives but 3 days of this shit really tires you out. Ciao.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Beating the iPod

mmm, after reading an article relating to Apple and Universal Music, I suddenly had a thought.

Why doesn't music companies realise that in order to beat Apple, they need to seriously invest into product development.

Apple's iPod succeeds because it's cooler, useful and much more classier than all other music players outplayer, even for a simple Nano.

This is a similar situation to Nintendo's Gameboy. It's a premium gaming device that has a premium price attached to it with a stranglehold on all the top games. Sony went into this market with it's PSP which was a class higher than the Gameboy. I think in hindsight, it's launch and resulting sales was quite successful.

Likewise, Microsoft went to compete with the Playstation and the Nintendo Gamecube with it's Xbox. It went to become a cost leader, and with it's huge piggy bank, this was acceptable in return for a huge chunk of the gaming industry. I think while it made losses, it's quite justified in the long run.

So why don't music companies launch a product that's even classier than the iPod. For one, I know this is achievable. With the right investment and dedication, the human mind is almost limitless. Reasons that come to mind include: 1) Not enough money to invest. 2) Waiting for a better opportunity. 3) Inability to collude successfully.

I figure companies are thinking hard and testing to see what they can do but the longer they wait, the more penetration Apple will achieve in the music industry. The low end market of the industry is not really worth the effort if they want something big and to compete head on with a product similar to the iPod is quite futile as we have seen with Zune (Seriously, what a lame name. Based on the name alone, you'll know it'll never beat the iPod).

So launch something superior in quality focusing on the high end and eventually dropping it down to tackle the iPod with economy class products. If it gains enough coverage and class, I would even consider despite the fact that I'm a poor ass student. For example, Louise Vuitton is considered a luxury in many parts but in big cities in China many consider it mediocre.

Apple's iPod reign must be brought to an end soon. It might bring an end to itself but that's gonna take a while. Companies must compete to bring its downfall quicker. The risks are quite clear and the poor attempts has been made (Zune...). Be brave, be revolutionary. Of course, in today's market where people fear risk-taking, I seriously can't forsee how iPod's doom will be speeded up.

I think I'll have to be satisfied with the boring iPod for now... and it's extremely priced parts. For a replacement earphone, it costs a fricking $48. For twice that, I can buy another damned iPod.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Tired of My Job

It's official, I hate my job. It has a poor environment with poor pay and poor treatment. I hate all the kids I have to manage and all the colleagues I have to be nice to who in truth needs to have their heads checked.

With a little background info., I'm a manager of a world famous fast food chain (lame..) and I get to manage 15-20 yr old boys and girls. I also have to associate with 40 yr old colleagues who mostly lack social skills in their treatment of everyone.

When I first started out at this job, I was 17. After being hired, I decided to set myself a goal of reaching "Silver" status in the crew hierarchy before quitting. I got that in 10 months. Rather than quitting and moving on, I stayed as the work environment was fun and I got to associate with smart individuals my age from all nationalities.

Nearly two years later, due to a variety of situations from deteriorating work relations to poor promotional prospects (I wanted management, crew was crap), I decided to transfer store.

Now this was no easy choice and I had to forsake a range of benefits. In hindsight, it was a correct choice because in any decision, one has to try to maximise as much of his most valued values as possible while minimising as few as possible. I chose promotion and challenge over intrinsic benefits @ old store.

Within 2 months, I obtained a spot in the management chain. So I got the privilege of running the store of 50 odd individuals alongside 4 other managers. It was fun at the beginning and I've learnt alot. However, I'm been doing this for almost 4 months now and it's a dead end and frankly, even if it was open end, I'd been sick of it.

The challenge's gone and I can't set myself anymore challenges without resorting to being a full timer which frankly, is out of the question considering my ambitions and desires. Furthermore, I detest the majority of my kiddies and my fellow managers who always seem to have a pin up her ass. I swear I'm going to do something regrettable to her one day... Call me an organisational psychopath...

Also the pay is poor considering what they pay people for part time jobs these days and there is NO PRETTY GIRLS HERE!! Well, they're all too young and too.. dim. I hate dim girls. Without wit, they're just boring...

The only good thing is free food and that's bad for me.

So I figured these reasons must be why I always dread my work everytime I think about going to it. I'm burnt out and I need a new job. With this vent out of the way, I'm going to officially start looking for something that'll begin my career. It's time to get serious.

I'm sleepy now...


Wednesday, March 12, 2008

The Point of Suicide?

Recently, I watched an interesting film called "Someone Special". It had a particular scene in it where a woman walks in front of a coming car and is killed by the collision. The scene suddenly slows with the woman suspended in the air (after being hit) and a bystander who also wants to die having a conversation before she dies. He asks her: "What's it like? Is it worth it?" She says: "Now that I've done it, no, I don't think so..."

Please note the previous sentence was subject to my distortion.

But the point I'm trying to make is that we take things for granted too much these days especially with our lives. Too often someone becomes depressed and tries to commit suicide.

At this point, I'd like to ask you a question: "What if you have successfully committed suicide and then suddenly felt regret - that you didn't want to die and that you still wanted to live despite how much you wanted to die?"

So what do you do then? Well, I guess the answer is simple. You can't do anything, you just die. You die with one of life's major regret hanging over your soon-to-cease-functioning brain.

Perhaps, it's only through dying that we truly appreciate the beauty of living. But I sincerely hope that no one comes to this conclusion the moment before they are about to die, especially through suicide.

I guess in a cost-benefit analysis, it's simply not worth it.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Magical Korean Films

This ones for you Happy Fool! :)

Korea, The Land of Morning Calm is a beautiful place indeed. With a rich culture and amazing yet deadly history, it's a place where most people associate with fashion and fast internet (well for South Korea at least ^_^). With over 72 million people including both North and South Koreans, it's the 18th largest nation in the world if ranked.

In the past few months, I've been somewhat addicted to another wonderful part of the Korean culture, it's films. Call me a movie fanatic or a movie buff, Korean films hits the spot for me. Most in particular the ladies (=P) but also the beautifully crafted plot and amazing actors and actresses.

Today I finished watching a top war film called Tae Gu Ki (태극기) AKA Brotherhood of War. Similar in style to Saving Private Ryan, it details the lives of two Korean brothers fighting (trapped) in the deadly Korean War. It brought back the memories of our forefathers who fought and died to create the nations we are living in. God bless them whoever you may be.

Another interesting film that comes to mind is The Art of Seduction (작업의 정석) starring the damned gorgeous Son Ye-jin (손예진). Her acting is simply spot on, flirtatious yet stopping from being slutty. Sexy, sophisticated and attractive, the perfect woman.

There is so much out there and I've seen most of the popular ones I believe. On a side note, if you are looking for good Korean movies to watch and not sure, please don't hesitate to give me an email. I'd love to help!

It's late so let me conclude with a song from my culture for you: "At Least I Still Have You"

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Top Earphones and A Song

mmm so my poor iPod 'buds was KIA partially due to mistreatment on my part... Intent on finding something superior for the price of $48 for a replacement, I went on a 2 hour research spree.

The search was fruitful after visiting a variety sites including Amazon, CNET, eBay and Whirlpool. Well, ok, maybe you think the sites are crap but they have a large number of reviews and recommendations which was what I seeked. So my aim was to find something sub-$100 AUD that was somewhat famous and superior in quality in clarity and bass than the old iPod stock 'buds.

After looking at a variety of Sennheiser buds, I was kind of settled on the MX 550. After some more research, I decided to look out for some cheap Etymotic due to its quality but then realised they were quite expensive and outside my parameters.

So in accordance, I hunted on. After a recommendation from a friend, I went to visit which listed a large number of top brands including beyerdynamic, sennheiser, ultimate ears, alessandro, koss etc etc.

How surprised to find that this site was the holy grail. It had everything I wanted including free advice and all top brands with free delivery in Australia. So after much work, I decided to settle for either a Yuni PK3 or Koss KSC-75 both of which are highly recommended. More so in that both are superior stock iPod buds.

I am currently awaiting an email regarding some advice before I settle on one. The only regret I kinda have is that iPod's marketing hype is so effective that if I'm not seen wearing a stock iPod bud, people may think my MP3 is crap... yeah, I'm very image focused. Nonetheless, I'm going to settle for insider pride! For those in the knows, they will know my brands are top quality. I'm also hoping the brand names are very clear and showing :D

Like a person once said, just because you havn't heard the brands I listed doesn't mean Sony is better - nothing against Sony, I have a set of Sony headphones ^_^

Now the main purpose I had in publishing this post is to inform people who are doing similar research like me. If you happen to stumble by my little world, please head over to and have a look. The brands advertised are not mass marketed brands and chances are you'll not have heard of them - what they are though is top class brands catering for the sounds professionals who knows what's the best. Go with any of them and you'll not go wrong. Just remember iPod buds are not as shit as everyone says, they're decent but you can get better ones at a decent price. If you're budget limited like me, stay with the stock until they're burnt. Then look for one of those brands because I feel the improvement in quality will allow you to get over the marketing hype.

Finally, I've been listening to a song called Bleeding Love. Wonderful, good melody. GO download it! I'm looking forward to listening to it on my iPod with my new 'buds.

Until next time, take care.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Nothing Wrong With P2P

In todays world, the media controls alot of what's going on. Which is a shame because status quo will always be broken and change will occur.

Media makes everything seems so distorted which is a shame on the current generation of journalists since it makes them look so shallow and dodgy.

It's just the case with P2P technology BitTorrent. The damned media around the world is making the BT site sound like criminals. Will if they're such criminals, why havn't they being shut down yet? Because of the judicial process? Because laws are made by men and since men are flawed, so are the laws? Or because of the fact that in the 21 st century, media's control over things are slowly being taken away and the power is coming back to the people?

So currently we have the the site being sued by some crap law firm in that the site's engaging in illegal practices. I am really interested to see what outcomes will be achieved.

In the meantime, I am all for P2P. Now I don't care whether the site makes alot of money because it should as hard work = money. I just hope the site doesn't get too greedy and become the total opposite of what it's advocating.

Just on a side note, I'd like to promote two wonderful pieces of softwares that can be found on and The first is something called AnyDVD which basically removes all protection on DVD's which means you can burn it with any approved burners and watch protected DVD's on any DVD player. The second piece of software is DVDFab Platinum which basically copies DVD's and writes them onto your hard drive or onto a blank DVD while removing ALL protection.

Wonderful these softwares aren't they? So just in case you can get your head around what I'm saying, download these two piece of softwares and you'll be set for sometime until Blu-ray wins the format war. So first, if you just want to watch DVD's without protection, download AnyDVD. Now if you want to burn those protected DVDs to save for future viewing, download DVDFab platinum which is a one is all software that removes all protection, copies and burns them onto your hard drive and/or onto blank DVD's. Once you have removed protection, the final disc can be viewed without AnyDVD. So realistically speaking, AnyDVD is really so useful until you decide to burn it. But having both means you're set without a worry and they really go hand in hand so get both.

Of course. the burner software is a bit slow so I suggest you use DVDFab Platinum to copy the contents to the hard drive then burn the unprotected contents onto the DVD with a software such as Nero.

Ok, now having done my piece to help promote P2P, now it's up to you to go download these softwares!! Share!!

Saturday, February 9, 2008

The Bigger Picture

"Diplomacy is about choosing your battles"

That quote is something I'll remember for a long time. That quote also reminds me to think of the bigger picture about everything. In our bid to achieve outcomes, we sometimes neglect the bigger picture of the situation and forget why things are the way they are.

Take the war between Hamas and Israel for example. The war is never going to end if you allow me to have a guess, not until the current generation of leadership dies and replaced by the next crop and even that. No matter how hard Israel punishes Hamas by cutting off electricity and so on, it'll not stop them from trying to attain their ultimate goal: the destruction of the "Zionist enemy". Hamas on the other hand is not going to give up arms and go to the negotiating table because if they do, someone else will come and take their spot as "destroyer of Israel". One, they'll become weak by negotiating and in the face of Muslim fanaticism, their power will be usurped. Two, complacency leads to problems. While I lack the knowledge regarding Middle Eastern affairs, by looking at the bigger picture, it is obvious to see that the war is going be become generational and unless strong and visionary leaders rise from both places, no amount of intervention is going to ensure the end of the bloodshed. Change is the only constant and status quo will be formed and then broken.

I hate to say this but peace in the Middle East is something that won't be achieved in the next few decades. It may be sustained temporarily bu true peace will never come. Religion is not always a good thing.

Moving on to another example, I recently read an article regarding China's aircraft carrier ambition. According to the author, China will unveil its prototype aircraft carrier named Shi Lang after the 2008 Beijing Olympics. In the article, it mentioned about a possible naval confrontation with India over energy supplies and how China may need to have bases in Myanmar AKA Burma. This made me think of why China played a little role in the pressuring of Burma over its human rights abuses. Because it considered the bigger picture. A number of factors must be taken into considerations before China makes any major decisions because in the bigger picture, everything is linked and has repercussions. If China pushed hard to satisfy Western desires, it'll be left with few allies in times of need. Of course, other factors comes into play, not just military but I'll not mention them here.

As I read my article, it seems that nothing is linked and somewhat superficial. It's probably my poor method of expression. The mind turns faster than what I can transpose into written English. If you could step into my mind, perhaps you'll be able to glimpse more than the fraction of what I have written here.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

In Memory of Fischer

Alas, the world has seen the passing away of another "larger than life" individual. This time, it's the famous or some would like to call him, infamous chess master, Robert James Fischer - AKA Bobby Fischer.

If you are unfamiliar with the game, I suggest you browse google or wikipedia, it's a delightful game to learn.

Chess has always been a hobby of mine since I was a kid. I've always been fascinated by strategy games; how one person can manipulate an entire scenario to his or her own will and "out-strat" your opponent.

The passing of Fischer is a shame truly. It can be said that he was a man who brought Chess to the world scene. Whatever he has done in the Chess arena whether it was good or bad, influenced the game. Now I don't care about his personal issues, I'm only saying about everything he has achieved in the game. The controversies he has generated whether they are good or bad doesn't matter, the fact that he generated controversy helped Chess to have a foot-hold among world sports.

If you have read an article by CNN, the former world champion Kasparov is said to have commented as following on Fischer's death: "The tragedy is that he left this world too early, and his extravagant life and scandalous statements did not contribute to the popularity of chess," former champion Kasparov told The Associated Press."

This really pissed me off. I am going to direct my future comments at Kasparov and pretend he is reading this.

"You, sir, are an idiot. Provided what you have written is true, you are not only an idiot but a fool and a moron who may be good at chess but lacks foresight at many other things. My respect for you have reduced to pretty much nil. Your games are crap, have no style and are simply boring. Your reign as world champion didn't bring that much to the chess world either so stfu. I'm glad you got your ass kicked by Putin because Russia may not need or want a western democracy as preached by you so you should take your dumb ass self and go somewhere, like for example the compost dump because you are history and while I enjoy reading history, have a very disdainful regard for losers in history."

Ok, now that I have vented my anger, time to re-direct my energy back to Fischer. I don't care whether he is American or anti-semitic, that's his own belief. I do care about his genius and the fact the game owes alot to him. All great people have faults, no one is perfect and so it should remain. Now that he has passed, his legacy as one of the world best and most controversial chess characters will no doubtly be immortalised. Like the formula China used on Chairman Mao, let's just say he was 70% correct and 30% wrong.

Rest in peace Mr. Fischer. Rest well in knowing that you have left you footprint on this world and you have done something useful for humanity.