A New Perspective

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2009-11-22T20:11:00.002+11:00

丑妻、薄田、破棉袄

2009-10-05T19:28:00.002+08:00

是男人的三件宝。

Roughly translated: Ugly wife, barren field and worn out cotton jacket is a man's three treasure.

Makes good sense no?

In dating, we want the prettiest wife but in marriage, the entire context of things change.

Hahaha...

Michael Jackson '09

2009-07-11T11:28:00.002+08:00

The death of a legend.

Michael Joseph Jackson (1958-2009) RIP.

The portrayal of Michael Jackson by today's shallow media must not obstruct his immense achievements for the human race.

His Music Will Live Forever.

HAHAHAHA

2009-05-31T18:41:00.004+08:00

OMG... This cracked me up... HAHAHAHA!

http://popseoul.com/2009/05/15/lee-hyori-confesses-i-am-more-glamorous-than-son-dambi/#more-55488

To put things into perspective, we're talking about Lee Hyori here, one of the most gorgeous, generally natural Asian beauties in the world.

"I don’t understand why men get all shy around me…..I need to change my personality into something softer so that guys will like me more…and also kill my temper so that I am more approachable."

LOL.. Are you for real? You don't understand why men get intimidated around 20/10 women like you? Well I don't know why either but it could be something to do with your beauty?

LOL...

Am I Sadistic or What?

2009-05-05T16:08:00.001+08:00

I just saw a girl miss her bus. She was running so furiously. But she missed. And I was so amused. No... it was damned hilarious hahaha! Should've run faster hahaha! Does this make me sadistic?

I would say so to an extent.

Damaged joy... What a fucking excellent theory hahaha!

Canberra Buses System Is A Piece of Shit

2009-05-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

OMFG Canberra bus system is a total piece of shit. As I write this, I am sitting on a bus that is 30 minutes late. Now if it was the first time, I wouldn't have cared too much but this is the third time it has happened and that's fucked up!! Coming from Perth, I understand I am a bit spoilt but this is simply wrong. Fuck!! I need a punching bag...

Oh and the drivers and call centre staff are pretty shit as well. The drivers are clueless when it comes to answering any question you may have. The call centre staff... well... all they can say when you make an enquiry is that they don't have any 'breakdowns'. Fucking bludgers, if you can't do your job, then give it to someone who can. Plenty of jobless executives out there in the current economic environment...

This goes the same for the shocking leaders of the ACT buses. Get with the program you useless fucks!!!!!

I have included some pictures of the interior of one of the buses. As you can see, it's pretty shit... Notice the sign that says 'These doors only open at interchanges'. These are on the rear door. Now what kind of fucked up policy is this?? Fuck!!

Ok, enough venting for today. I shall be back with more to bitch about these time.

The Importance of Failure - 100th Post

2009-03-06T19:58:00.008+08:00

Well... this is my 100th post since creating a blog. It's been a long ride, from part time work at a fast food restaurant to now, working as a professional in a key Federal Government agency.

I've learnt and experienced many new things during this period of time and the blog has played a critical role in allowing me to reflect on those experiences. I guess in many respects, making my 100th post on the topic of failure is perhaps interesting yet suitable.

As an individual, I've always been highly confident of my abilities to achieve things that I set my mind to. My determination (or stubbornness) and my attention to detail have never failed me. Yet today, something happened that should not have. I messed up the structure of my part of a presentation and made a gaffe in front of a group of key individuals.

This have made me reflect deeply about why it has occurred because presenting has always been my forte. After much thought and agony, I have come to realise that I took my abilities for granted and that they can only shine when I use them in unison. Due to my past positive experiences with presenting, my confidence rose to a level that I felt I could present without sufficient preparation. And what a wake up call it was. My pride, ego, misplaced confidence certainly took a major hit.

In the past, I've always made sure I clearly understood the material I am presenting and wrote them down in a logical and clear manner so I can follow it clearly when presenting. And I have always rehearsed at least once or twice. Today, I did little of this and I stuffed up.

However, my gaffe has made me realise the importance of failure. While I absolutely love the feeling of victory, failure are just equally important provided I view them as a lesson rather than a mistake. In particular, if the failure is a technical failure not an inherent failure.

Failure is inevitable in our lives. Failure is not something that I am accustomed to, whether it be big things or small things. But I have come to realise that failure is important because it can teach me new things and reinforce what I know but have come grown used to. By failing, I am in many ways succeeding. Of course this could be me rationalising but I do believe what I have said to a good degree. By failing, we can prevent other failures through learning.

To a lighter side of things, here some of pictures of me in my new home in the capital of Australia, Canberra. The stuffed toys are my war spoils in Canberra's Royal Show. They're a testament to my ability to shoot stars and water pistols haha!

Click

2009-02-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

Ah Click, what an interesting movie.

Appreciate what we have whether it's good or bad because one day it's going to disappear.

What a shame that nothing lasts forever but perhaps that's the beauty of life...

Rain Fall

2009-02-02T00:29:00.001+08:00

John Rain, aka Junichi Fujiwara, was born in 1952 to a Japanese father and an American mother. He is a freelance assassin whose speciality is assassinations that appear to be death by natural causes. He has undergone plastic surgery to hide his Caucasian heritage and has dyed his brown hair. In 1960, Rain's father was killed, so his mother moved them to Dryden, NY where she taught at Cornell.

See the trailer - Rain Fall the Movie

For release on 25th of April! See it then!

The Legend of Bruce Lee

2009-01-23T04:51:00.005+08:00

A wonderful TV series that can be downloaded on BitTorrent sites. However there isn't that many seeds on English BT sites. Plenty of Chinese trackers, interested individuals contact me. Be warned it's only in Chinese, audio and subtitles wise... Hopefully it'll be released in English soon!

Top actress that should be noted in the series is 杨亚星. Her blog is http://blog.sina.com.cn/yangyaxingblog.

A beautiful girl who shines out from the TV. Let her be proof that China has plenty of gorgeous woman. Let her be an example to the selectors of Miss China for whatever beauty pageants out there that there is and will always be beautiful women in China. Chinese women has the best natural beauty. I emphasise natural beauty. Many can be caked in layers of make up and look good.

Also that Chinese Gong Fu is the best!

Random Thoughts

2009-01-22T22:35:00.004+08:00

mmm I've neglected my blog over the past weeks and months. I've certainly neglected the people who take out time and read it. What can I say except that I've grown lazy due to a number of reasons. It's a shame but my original source of motivation for posting have gradually disappeared. But the blog has always represented what I felt at certain times of my life and I'm positive one day I'll be renewed and refreshed enough to revamp it... For now, it'll be posted with thoughts here and there...

Good news... after years of hard work (or so I believe), I managed to obtain offers from two of Australia's most important (and prestigious) government agencies for their graduate programs in 2009. After careful thought, I have decided to take up the offer with the agency in Eastern Australia, or Canberra more specifically. The program is highly intensive and will run for one year, after which I will receive a permanent position. If you would recall, one of my earlier posts (very early) said I'll be posting something big. This is it. I think I consider myself very lucky. Being able to secure a position so soon after graduating without long periods of waiting and agony... Nothing much else to say except that I'll be working to the best of my abilities and striving to succeed.

However, this wasn't why I want to make a post. What I really wanted to say in this post is that how lame it is for life is to be measured by our material achievements. As a young individual, we are measured by how well we do at school, how well we do at university (and other places) as well as the prestigiousness of our first employer. Growing older, we are measured by our income and our possessions whether it be car or houses. Whether we grow up to be rich or poor, successful or a failure, we are always measured by our material achievements. Often many of us do not realise this and actually try to compete with others on this scale. I find this crude and pathetic.. to an extent.

Well I realise this and I find this pathetic and sad. Nonetheless, a part of me cannot disregard a feeling of contempt and disdain for those who are less. I guess that's very much of what it is being a human. We are animals. Yet we are perhaps, to the extent of our scientific knowledge, evolved animals. Surely we must have something more to strive for than wealth and children.

I recently read an interesting book that summarised how I felt very succintly in the space of one page. I wish I could remember the words. Perhaps this path of thought is leading me to seek spiritual contentment but I've rarely being one who fervently believed in religion.

Nonetheless, forward we as a race go and forward as an individual I go. To a new life and perhaps something more worthwhile....

To all, I hope everyone had a wonderful new year. Best wishes in finding what you want in this life.

Shan

Pragmatism at Its Peak

2008-12-07T23:18:00.004+08:00

"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."

We'll never learn from history will we?

But we must.

Innocent Smile

2008-12-04T03:24:00.002+08:00

So many of us are broken in one way or another. As a result, we're incapable of giving a smile that is like a newborn's.

An innocent smile. A beautiful smile. Alas, what a shame... If only...

Get Smart

2008-12-03T23:16:00.004+08:00

Just finished watching "Get Smart" the movie. Brilliant, bit ordinary true but fun nonetheless and invoked some memories.

I used to watch Get Smart when I was back in China and it was a great show. Never knew what it was called until a while back and man, it brought back smiles. What a legendary series!

It's a sad shame there's few things like that these days. All these Idol and Big Brother crap... I missed the wit in television series. The closest that I can find is "Boston Legal", a fabulous and equally amazing series. Brilliant acting and scripting. And that's coming to an end... What a shame..

Get Smart

Boston Legal

Wit, what an invaluable trait...

The Limits of Human Understanding - The Butterfly Effect

2008-11-27T14:36:00.003+08:00

How interesting...

The meaning of the butterfly

Highly recommended...

Butterfly Man

HOT

2008-09-29T17:05:00.005+08:00

They are just HOT.

For images of these gorgeous girls, click here.

Hot, just hot. I think I'm in love.

Regret and Life

2008-07-06T02:29:00.005+08:00

"Every man I meet is in some way my superior"

A somewhat politically incorrect/sexist quote in the modern world. But as an individual, I strongly believe in the idea behind it. We can never learn enough after all.

Perhaps one of the most enjoyable activities when socialising with a person is listening and learning, well, if the person is interesting/smart enough. It's always humbling to recognise something in that person which you could take away for use in the future.

A recent discussion with a smart and capable individual made me ponder a critical issue in our life: regret.

We all regret something in our life and we feel we could have done that something better. And often, we ask ourselves the all important question of why? Why did we make that decision?

According to wikipedia, regret is defined as an intelligent (and/or emotional) dislike for personal past acts and behaviors. Regret is often felt when someone feels sadness, shame, embarrassment or guilt after committing an action or actions that the person later wishes that he or she had not done. Regret can describe not only the dislike for an action that has been committed, but also, importantly, regret of inaction. Many people find themselves wishing that they had done something in a past situation.

Moreover, it seems that there are two forms of regret: 1) For things that we have done and 2) For things that we have not done. Perhaps this is best illustrated by the following quote:

"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."

In this view, regret can be caused by action or inaction. Nonetheless, a decision has to had happen because the person can regret about whether they will regret the past action or past inactions. It would also be fair to say that a regrettable decision had to be made based on some kind of ground. In this regards, we can say two things: 1) The ground or basis for a decision comes from the heart/gut/mind 2) From existing circumstances. Furthermore, according to regret theory, the fear of regret itself can play a large role in dissuading or motivating someone to do something.

So as weird/complex as this speculation may sound, it screams something obvious and that is whatever made us made a regrettable decision was not solid and possibly hastened by the actual fear of future regret itself. What I am perhaps truly confused about is WHY sometimes we make a decision that we regret, especially if a decision has ENORMOUS repercussions on our life and its direction.

Could it possible be a lack of knowledge, lack of foresight, lack of planning or all three?

But could it be something else?

Let me clarify. When we make a decision, that decision could be for 1) matters of ones life such as job, education etc. or 2) matters of the heart. For 1), the reasons that caused us to make regrettable decisions can be surprisingly obvious as I have mentioned previously. But for 2), matters of the heart may be less so? By logic, you would hardly jump into a decision regarding a matter of the heart unless there is a strong motivation to do so right? Of course, it is exactly this point that void the previous sentence because matters of the heart are rarely logical right? I was actually reading an interesting article which mentioned that more than 1/3 of women married would not choose the same spouse 2nd time around. I was absolutely shocked.

So from this person, I felt that I have taken something away and in immeasurable ways, I thank you.

1) When making a decision for anything, ensure it is based on logic. Love is the opiate of the masses and logic is the cure. If you ever have regret, you can always fall back on logic but never that heart jumping, warm, tingling feeling. Fuck that shit. I know I will live to contradict myself but I like my theories.

2) Never trust your gut or heart. Always trust your mind.

3) True love don't exist. Fairy tales are lame and one will only end up hurting oneself.

4) I have grown more cynical of the human species and especially females in particular. It's a shame. I am growing more and more fond of the quote: Shoot now, ask questions later or in this case, hurt others before you get hurt.

5) I admire strong willed, self capable and intellectually gifted females. They are rare and I hope anyone who does command the love of one to fully appreciate what they have.

6) Life is pointless.

Time to wrap up. Here's a nice Paint drawing I did to summarise my points I was going to say something here as well but I can't remember and it's really cold.

Next post, "Love/Dating/Marriage is the opiates of the masses". And I warn anyone who may read my next article, beware. It is going to be highly pessimistic/cynical/ugly in its view and very depressing and can bring on anxiety, headache, fear, sudden coldness leading to possible heart attacks. Reader discretion is advised.

4 Wealth Cornerstones

2008-06-19T13:10:00.005+08:00

I realised that to have real power and finance in life, one should establish a foothold in these 4 cornerstones.

1) Organised Crime: Outrageous? In the past and in the modern times, organised crime can net you more money than a legitmate career, despite the risks and other unpleasant issues. Research shows that organised crime earns billions from their illicit activities. I'm not advocating this but having certain contacts would certainly assist.

2) Government: One should have a position in the government or have solid sources from the government. This will ensure that the law will not intefere with your activities.

3) Land Ownership: The basic need. Having land is a lucrative source of income and it's a guaranteed source of income. You need land because it's secure.

4) Business: Simple, you need a business. Without a business, you'll forever be generating money for other people.

Perhaps I am crazy, but if you think about it, these are the foundations on which people prosper.

Graduation Cognitive Dissonance

2008-06-14T00:51:00.003+08:00

Today, I had a somewhat interesting enlightment while contemplating on the train tonight. I may have discovered a new form of post university/colleage post traumatic disorder. I call it "graduation cognitive dissonance (GCD)". This is the period of depression that an individual enter after graduating from their course, whether it be a fear of the wrong choice of degree/career, the fear of hating the degree/career path, the fear of not choosing something that can get you a job.

The syptoms of GCD includes: depression, continuous sighing, non-stop self reflection, envy of engineers, economists, doctors and those job guaranteed smart bastards, rationalisation to convince yourself of how it's too late and how you have other benefits, attempts to relieve pressure(s) exerted on you directly or indirectly, consciously or sub-consciously, existant or non existant. These symptoms are capped off by a numbing sensation in the brain along with a heavy heart. Furthermore, these symptoms are amplified if you hate your current dead end job and if you have many friends who to you is in a similar position but acts like they have not a care in the world.

So, perhaps this is just me or perhaps this applies to alot of people who don't know why they are so sad after graduating. I think this is just me because I am a lame, no life loser, who has a huge and easily bruisable ego and whom personality is so lame and crap... Anyway, I did discover a few solutions that can reduce this disorder.

1) Establish and eliminate sources of GCD. For example, I hate my dead end job so I will try to find a new one.

2) Get in touch with friends who did a similar course and identify possible employment opportunities.

3) Get drunk. Actually no. While it may mitigate your reasoning skills, it does not remove the problem.

4) Find a girl/guy and start become an abusive partner and push them to work harder to support you because you're an official GCD sufferer and has the right to lean on the strong.

5) Create a blog and do what I do, blog randomlessly about random ideas that comes up in your head and hope others will find it ramdomly interesting.

But seriously, I think the best way to get out of this phase is to find a worthwhile employment. According to David McClelland, we have a need for afilliation, achievement and power so find your source of motivation and never give up. It's too late to change your degree so think of the reasons why you did it and work hard in making the best out of it. It will pay off (I'm hoping...) and you will move into a new phase that I have yet to experience and therefore unable to comment.

Anyway, enough blubbering. Still looking forward to my magical event!! And oh yeah, I wanna find a proper web host, any recommendations?

An Amusing Thought

2008-06-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been in a situation where alot of things seems to be resting on the outcome of one event? That is, how the near future of your life will pan out depending on how well the event in questions turns out?

I'm sure all of us has been at crossroads in our lives, where we have to make a decision on where we want to go and how we will go to get there. Of course, some of us do not see life as clearly as that and I'm sure we have our reasons but lets ignore that aspect for one second.

Some may also be thinking, well, you shouldn't have put your eggs in one basket huh? I concur but sometimes, mistakes on my part or circumstances does not allow me to have extra eggs so lets ignore this aspect as well.

I'm in a similar predicament at the moment and I find it amusing. The future of my life seriously depend on this event for the time being and my life can turn out wonderfully if I succeed in this event or it can face more uncertainty and mediocrity if I fail. And I'm not talking about the exams. I have been thinking just how damned hilarious it is... Funny as this is, I do not feel the pressure, perhaps because judgement day has not neared yet.

I'm not sure what else I can say except this is amusing and I just wanted to point it out. If you are curious, I'll make sure I update on exactly what I mean with this post. I will of course, endeavour to make sure I prepare the best I can to succeed. Success and prestige or uncertainty and mediocrity in my life and career rests on how well I perform in this event. I am really looking forward to success and I hope everyone who reads this wish me every luck.

A Little Less Thought, A Little Less Effort..

2008-06-03T01:34:00.002+08:00

And ... Maybe Life Would Be A Bit Sweeter.. For You And Me..

It's been a while since I made my last post. Upon reflection, it seems that I have lost alot of my energy to blog. No longer do I find the activity as enjoyful as I first ventured out into this wonderful territory. I am not sure why but I'm guessing it has something to do with the topic of this post.

Blogging used to be a method of expression for me... Something to write down the thoughts that come to me during each day. It's worked well and I think I've made some nice posts that are insightful and open minded. Of course, some not so but I'd like to think the majority was good.

Therefore I intend to continue. But my life's quite hectic and depressing these days... Let me address some of the events that has been occuring:

1) Good thing. I got my license. Something that will give me freedom but it's a double edged sword I think. It also signifies it's time for me to spread my own wings after years of peace under that of my parents.

2) Soon to graduate. As I approach the near end of my university studies, it signifies entering the rat race. The pressure is quite frustrating. On one hand, I need to get out of my current part time job and on the other, I need to find a job that's related to my degree within a decent timeframe. The desire not to fail and show that I can do people proud is overwhelming. Everytime I think about going back to the part time job, I get a dreaded feeling. I realise that I despise that workplace and large majority of the people, especially the colleagues. Therefore, the need to get out is ever mounting. I just can't wait to get the hell out even if it means finding a job not relating to my degree. With something that can contribute to my experience in an office environment, I can always work up just as long as I get out. Job hunting sucks though... So many applications, so many deadlines, so many questions. Be nice to be born rich huh lol...

3) A somewhat unnatural desire to get fit. I've began a gradual exercise regime of jogging and basketball along with usual body toning stuff. No idea why but this is quite unlike before, it just came out of nowhere. This point reinforces point two in that I need to get the fuck out of the fast food joint since working there = dodgy shifts = bad food = hard scheduling and poor diet. Need to get out....

4) A need to organise and understand finances. This point illustrates my subconscious's desire to take out a mortgage... Share broking, business opportunities, networking blah blah blah... I need to move out. Just a natural desire and something that's also weighing on my mind...

5) The need to get in touch with old acquaintances and catchup...

6) Last exams for my first university degree. Also just in time to celebrate my B-Day right after graduating with the degree. That'll be cool. Need to find out about honours, another crushing thought...

So I'll stop there. Typical stuff, everyone who's 20 must be worrying like me. I feel for you all, I truly do and I give out my sincerest hopes for your endeavors in this length of your life journey. For those who are not worrying, I am scared for you. For those who's gone through it and is go a good path, I envy you so wish me luck to get through this stage well. I realise I've gotten very personal, possibly the most personal post I've made in my blogging life. Ah well, that can't be helped, I needed an outlet to vent, an outlet that can't speak back and tell me you have nothing to worry about. Fools.

On a lighter note, for those of you who are still reading my blog, I apologise for not reading and visiting. I hope you understand. I thought I could go into active modes a few times before but I realise now that it will be impossible until everything I am worrying reaches a stable mode. I did create a Facebook account based on pressure from people and I am curious to see how many friends I can recruit lol, it's like a game. Search my email on my profile and add me :P

Also, I have taken sometime out and looked at a few Blogger templates. I want a minimalistic design and I found a few good ones. Again, when I get some time, I will give my blog a revamped look. I intend to add in some nice sections including Books, Movies and Music. Perhaps you'll find something I like that is to your interest as well :)

Until next time, here's a nice song from the famous Marie Digby: Say It Again and oh, don't think too much like me so SMILE!!!!! ^_^

Microsoft's Password Recovery

2008-05-12T14:27:00.004+08:00

Well, something bad happened last night. I wet my bed, something I havn't done in a long time... I think.

But no, I did not. I don't hope to either but I dreamt shitloads about you. No, that's a lie too.

But I'm going to say a truth and that is how great I think Windows One Care service team has become. Just last night, I lost my password for Hotmail and hence Messenger and I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown due to it's importance to me.

I spent precious hours scouring for a possible solution when I should've been researching and came up found wanting. The effort was futile and I was deeply saddened by this. Then I found a great link that allowed me to recover my password through account verification with Windows Live team.

It is as follows: https://support.live.com/eform.aspx?productKey=wlid&ct=eformts

Another one is as follows: http://email.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?zi=1/XJ&sdn=email&cdn=compute&tm=

4&f=00&su=p284.8.150.ip_&tt=13&bt=1&bts=0&zu=https%3A//support.live.com/eform.aspx
%3FproductKey%3Dwlidvalidation%26ct%3Deformcs

(Thanks for About)

From these two links, you are able to get support from the Live team, a real life technician who will verify the information you send them who will then send you a password reset link expiring in 3 days.

I got a response easily within 24 hours and was provided with a link to gain access. I found things to be simple and fast despite my initial skepticism. So if you lost your hotmail password, you can recover it through this link. Preferably, make sure you don't lose it in the first place and have a good secret answer that you can write down and hide somewhere.

I just want to thank Aldrin from the Live team for helping me with this effort and say that you've gained a faithful Hotmail supporter for a long time :)

Zai Jian People.

P.S. AskLeo is a load of shit. It's a very outdated site so ignore his advice because this service will give your account back.

The End

2008-05-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

So, I've decided to kill myself.

Actually no. It's something that has not crossed my mind and I'm hoping it'll remain that way. This joke may sounds bad but I can be an ass sometimes and frankly, I care little and little about many things these days.

My life is reaching a crucial stage over the next few months. Soon, I'll be graduating and many things are going to happen at a fast pace. The first is deciding on just what to do. Is it time to look for a job or continue studying? With a job, I am able to take out a mortgage (this is a must before moving out) and move on with life. Though it makes you wonder what's the point when it all ends? I guess the process is much more important than the end right?

Anyway, going off track a bit there... I think it'll be better to find a job and take out a mortgage. This way I can move out and proceed faster towards my life goals whatever they are... Now this is a damned depressing thought... Looking for a proper job... On one hand, I'll be leaving my dreaded workplace but on the other, the depressing thought of being rejected until I find the desired job (if there is one) doesn't make things much more brighter.

Nonetheless, move forward I must. I think once I find a graduate position, I'll see if I can attempt honours part time because it's something that can make me special lol... Another thought... Writing this post makes me feel my options are everywhere. I need to do a mindmap soon...

Anyway, yeah... that's a bit of random rant about my soon to explode life... Definitely a typical life for an average kid. Not as exciting as dealing drugs or being a child soldier...

I'm hoping I'll have something more exciting to rant about next time... Until then, adios my friends. Wish me luck.

P.S. Please don't surprise me. I'm a mundane individual, I long for stability. I don't like betting until I know I have a good chance of succeeding. If I fail, I tend to back away, learn from my mistakes and try again. But when I try again, I hope the situation will have changed enough to give me a better chance of succeeding. Of course, that's very much unlikely so all in all, surprises sucks. I don't change much...

things girls don't relize

2008-04-27T19:15:00.006+08:00

Yeah, the topic was written incorrectly intentionally.

I have alot to rant about including a discussion I had with my staff members regarding their religion, a thought that came into my mind after watching a movie regarding love and then the issue of Tibet. But I'm just going to note them here and write about them later...

On another note, my blog has become less analytical in nature and more diary style. it seems my creative energy has been sapped by time wasting activities... But go with the flow I will.

Oh yeah, I passed my driving test 2 weeks ago, on Mon 8 of April 08. Finally got off my lazy ass lol...

Ok enough ranting for now and just want to post a chain letter I received a few moments ago. Normally, I delete those crap but I'm gonna make a special exception for this one as it might bring a smile or two to the guys and girls. It brought a smile to my lips.

Have fun reading!

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Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

The Fruits of My Labour

2008-03-30T05:09:00.005+08:00

OMG!!! I JUST WON THE LOTTERY!!!

Actually, no, but I'm just as ecstatic. Ever done something well and right and you just feel so suddenly good? Well I'm feeling it now because I done something that I feel proud of.

I fixed up two of my PC's in 3 days including a new hard drive, total installation of all files, new graphics card tweaking and finally, new game.

I'm not going to make any sense because I've been trying to fix a shutdown/restart error of my laptop for the last hour. The time is 5:12am.

Two things I want to address in this blog/diary note and the main purpose is for me to share information with others facing similar issues to me. If you're reading this, thank me because my work did not come easy. Fuck no.

1) Counter Strike: Source. An interesting game I bought a day ago. Quite different to 1.3 haha and too damn realistic. Fucking grenades don't bounce the same either and damned noobs can't throw flash properly. Kids, you throw the 'nades at the enemy, not your fucking team mate you little turds.

Anyway, I tried to play this game on my low end laptop which had a 945GM Graphics card. Integrated of course. I got a black screen and can't get into the options. So it runs but not good enough. After much research and reading loads of shit, I found only 2 articles which mentioned that Source can be run on this card. Determined to prove this myself, I searched further and asked shitloads of people who mostly abused my card and made fun of my laptop.

Well guess what fuckers, it ran. With new drivers, and the well known Casey's config as well as dropping -dxlevel to 7, it ran biatches. On net with half full map, I got an amazing 10fps average!! You won't believe how much fun I had... So people, you can run source on low end cards and even integrated provided you tweak the settings enough and lowering your -dxlevel to 7. If anyone bumps into this article and want more info, email me.

2) Ever experienced shutdown problems? Or reboot problems? Sometimes it takes you fricking 2 mins to do either?

Well, I did on my laptop again! What a damned headache... I had no idea why so I formatted the shit (it needed that anyway). So it did the same again after a format (along with all new installations...) so I formatted it again. Yeah, I formatted it twice with the second time done after installing everything... You know how painful that is? It's fucking depressing sitting in front of the PC doing that. I now know I'm not the IT type. I get lonely and depressed but then again who don't after playing with 2 PCs non stop for 3 days in a row...

Anyway, the third time round, I decided to declare war. One can't have peace unless one uses force. I should've learned that from WW1. I went on the net again scouring info. about what the problem was. Mainly got loads of old shit about random crap not applicable to modern situations.

But with a few gold nuggets here and there I pieced together a war plan. Firstly, I realised I needed to identify my source of problem. To do that, I needed to access the Event's Manager in CP. With that I was able to see all errors and it showed that one or more of my resources are not unloading their memory properly @ shutdown/restart. It however didn't tell me which one so I followed the error code and found a program (UPHClean) which supposedly unloaded it without me finding out. Unfortunately it was snake medicine and didn't do what it purported. But from it, I was able to find out which program was fucking with me and it was a Toshiba sound program. Dodgy programmers who can't program for shit, they fuck up so it conflicts with my other shit which fucks me up... Fuck.

tvstray.exe you bastard. You know how much misery and pain you've caused me? I hope the programmer goes to hell. So armed with msconfig I disabled the fucker for good. Now it doesn't fuck with me anymore. I'm telling all you processes, fuck with me again and I'll delete you for good. Hear me.

It's late, so tired, sorry for so much expletives but 3 days of this shit really tires you out. Ciao.

Beating the iPod

2008-03-21T22:32:00.005+08:00

mmm, after reading an article relating to Apple and Universal Music, I suddenly had a thought.

Why doesn't music companies realise that in order to beat Apple, they need to seriously invest into product development.

Apple's iPod succeeds because it's cooler, useful and much more classier than all other music players outplayer, even for a simple Nano.

This is a similar situation to Nintendo's Gameboy. It's a premium gaming device that has a premium price attached to it with a stranglehold on all the top games. Sony went into this market with it's PSP which was a class higher than the Gameboy. I think in hindsight, it's launch and resulting sales was quite successful.

Likewise, Microsoft went to compete with the Playstation and the Nintendo Gamecube with it's Xbox. It went to become a cost leader, and with it's huge piggy bank, this was acceptable in return for a huge chunk of the gaming industry. I think while it made losses, it's quite justified in the long run.

So why don't music companies launch a product that's even classier than the iPod. For one, I know this is achievable. With the right investment and dedication, the human mind is almost limitless. Reasons that come to mind include: 1) Not enough money to invest. 2) Waiting for a better opportunity. 3) Inability to collude successfully.

I figure companies are thinking hard and testing to see what they can do but the longer they wait, the more penetration Apple will achieve in the music industry. The low end market of the industry is not really worth the effort if they want something big and to compete head on with a product similar to the iPod is quite futile as we have seen with Zune (Seriously, what a lame name. Based on the name alone, you'll know it'll never beat the iPod).

So launch something superior in quality focusing on the high end and eventually dropping it down to tackle the iPod with economy class products. If it gains enough coverage and class, I would even consider despite the fact that I'm a poor ass student. For example, Louise Vuitton is considered a luxury in many parts but in big cities in China many consider it mediocre.

Apple's iPod reign must be brought to an end soon. It might bring an end to itself but that's gonna take a while. Companies must compete to bring its downfall quicker. The risks are quite clear and the poor attempts has been made (Zune...). Be brave, be revolutionary. Of course, in today's market where people fear risk-taking, I seriously can't forsee how iPod's doom will be speeded up.

I think I'll have to be satisfied with the boring iPod for now... and it's extremely priced parts. For a replacement earphone, it costs a fricking $48. For twice that, I can buy another damned iPod.

Tired of My Job

2008-03-20T07:49:00.002+08:00

It's official, I hate my job. It has a poor environment with poor pay and poor treatment. I hate all the kids I have to manage and all the colleagues I have to be nice to who in truth needs to have their heads checked.

With a little background info., I'm a manager of a world famous fast food chain (lame..) and I get to manage 15-20 yr old boys and girls. I also have to associate with 40 yr old colleagues who mostly lack social skills in their treatment of everyone.

When I first started out at this job, I was 17. After being hired, I decided to set myself a goal of reaching "Silver" status in the crew hierarchy before quitting. I got that in 10 months. Rather than quitting and moving on, I stayed as the work environment was fun and I got to associate with smart individuals my age from all nationalities.

Nearly two years later, due to a variety of situations from deteriorating work relations to poor promotional prospects (I wanted management, crew was crap), I decided to transfer store.

Now this was no easy choice and I had to forsake a range of benefits. In hindsight, it was a correct choice because in any decision, one has to try to maximise as much of his most valued values as possible while minimising as few as possible. I chose promotion and challenge over intrinsic benefits @ old store.

Within 2 months, I obtained a spot in the management chain. So I got the privilege of running the store of 50 odd individuals alongside 4 other managers. It was fun at the beginning and I've learnt alot. However, I'm been doing this for almost 4 months now and it's a dead end and frankly, even if it was open end, I'd been sick of it.

The challenge's gone and I can't set myself anymore challenges without resorting to being a full timer which frankly, is out of the question considering my ambitions and desires. Furthermore, I detest the majority of my kiddies and my fellow managers who always seem to have a pin up her ass. I swear I'm going to do something regrettable to her one day... Call me an organisational psychopath...

Also the pay is poor considering what they pay people for part time jobs these days and there is NO PRETTY GIRLS HERE!! Well, they're all too young and too.. dim. I hate dim girls. Without wit, they're just boring...

The only good thing is free food and that's bad for me.

So I figured these reasons must be why I always dread my work everytime I think about going to it. I'm burnt out and I need a new job. With this vent out of the way, I'm going to officially start looking for something that'll begin my career. It's time to get serious.

I'm sleepy now...

Adios.

The Point of Suicide?

2008-03-12T16:13:00.003+08:00

Recently, I watched an interesting film called "Someone Special". It had a particular scene in it where a woman walks in front of a coming car and is killed by the collision. The scene suddenly slows with the woman suspended in the air (after being hit) and a bystander who also wants to die having a conversation before she dies. He asks her: "What's it like? Is it worth it?" She says: "Now that I've done it, no, I don't think so..."

Please note the previous sentence was subject to my distortion.

But the point I'm trying to make is that we take things for granted too much these days especially with our lives. Too often someone becomes depressed and tries to commit suicide.

At this point, I'd like to ask you a question: "What if you have successfully committed suicide and then suddenly felt regret - that you didn't want to die and that you still wanted to live despite how much you wanted to die?"

So what do you do then? Well, I guess the answer is simple. You can't do anything, you just die. You die with one of life's major regret hanging over your soon-to-cease-functioning brain.

Perhaps, it's only through dying that we truly appreciate the beauty of living. But I sincerely hope that no one comes to this conclusion the moment before they are about to die, especially through suicide.

I guess in a cost-benefit analysis, it's simply not worth it.

Magical Korean Films

2008-03-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

This ones for you Happy Fool! :)

Korea, The Land of Morning Calm is a beautiful place indeed. With a rich culture and amazing yet deadly history, it's a place where most people associate with fashion and fast internet (well for South Korea at least ^_^). With over 72 million people including both North and South Koreans, it's the 18th largest nation in the world if ranked.

In the past few months, I've been somewhat addicted to another wonderful part of the Korean culture, it's films. Call me a movie fanatic or a movie buff, Korean films hits the spot for me. Most in particular the ladies (=P) but also the beautifully crafted plot and amazing actors and actresses.

Today I finished watching a top war film called Tae Gu Ki (태극기) AKA Brotherhood of War. Similar in style to Saving Private Ryan, it details the lives of two Korean brothers fighting (trapped) in the deadly Korean War. It brought back the memories of our forefathers who fought and died to create the nations we are living in. God bless them whoever you may be.

Another interesting film that comes to mind is The Art of Seduction (작업의 정석) starring the damned gorgeous Son Ye-jin (손예진). Her acting is simply spot on, flirtatious yet stopping from being slutty. Sexy, sophisticated and attractive, the perfect woman.

There is so much out there and I've seen most of the popular ones I believe. On a side note, if you are looking for good Korean movies to watch and not sure, please don't hesitate to give me an email. I'd love to help!

It's late so let me conclude with a song from my culture for you: "At Least I Still Have You"

Top Earphones and A Song

2008-03-04T21:59:00.004+08:00

mmm so my poor iPod 'buds was KIA partially due to mistreatment on my part... Intent on finding something superior for the price of $48 for a replacement, I went on a 2 hour research spree.

The search was fruitful after visiting a variety sites including Amazon, CNET, eBay and Whirlpool. Well, ok, maybe you think the sites are crap but they have a large number of reviews and recommendations which was what I seeked. So my aim was to find something sub-$100 AUD that was somewhat famous and superior in quality in clarity and bass than the old iPod stock 'buds.

After looking at a variety of Sennheiser buds, I was kind of settled on the MX 550. After some more research, I decided to look out for some cheap Etymotic due to its quality but then realised they were quite expensive and outside my parameters.

So in accordance, I hunted on. After a recommendation from a friend, I went to visit heaphones.com.au which listed a large number of top brands including beyerdynamic, sennheiser, ultimate ears, alessandro, koss etc etc.

How surprised to find that this site was the holy grail. It had everything I wanted including free advice and all top brands with free delivery in Australia. So after much work, I decided to settle for either a Yuni PK3 or Koss KSC-75 both of which are highly recommended. More so in that both are superior stock iPod buds.

I am currently awaiting an email regarding some advice before I settle on one. The only regret I kinda have is that iPod's marketing hype is so effective that if I'm not seen wearing a stock iPod bud, people may think my MP3 is crap... yeah, I'm very image focused. Nonetheless, I'm going to settle for insider pride! For those in the knows, they will know my brands are top quality. I'm also hoping the brand names are very clear and showing :D

Like a person once said, just because you havn't heard the brands I listed doesn't mean Sony is better - nothing against Sony, I have a set of Sony headphones ^_^

Now the main purpose I had in publishing this post is to inform people who are doing similar research like me. If you happen to stumble by my little world, please head over to headphones.com.au and have a look. The brands advertised are not mass marketed brands and chances are you'll not have heard of them - what they are though is top class brands catering for the sounds professionals who knows what's the best. Go with any of them and you'll not go wrong. Just remember iPod buds are not as shit as everyone says, they're decent but you can get better ones at a decent price. If you're budget limited like me, stay with the stock until they're burnt. Then look for one of those brands because I feel the improvement in quality will allow you to get over the marketing hype.

Finally, I've been listening to a song called Bleeding Love. Wonderful, good melody. GO download it! I'm looking forward to listening to it on my iPod with my new 'buds.

Until next time, take care.

Nothing Wrong With P2P

2008-02-19T22:44:00.006+08:00

In todays world, the media controls alot of what's going on. Which is a shame because status quo will always be broken and change will occur.

Media makes everything seems so distorted which is a shame on the current generation of journalists since it makes them look so shallow and dodgy.

It's just the case with P2P technology BitTorrent. The damned media around the world is making the BT site thepiratebay.org sound like criminals. Will if they're such criminals, why havn't they being shut down yet? Because of the judicial process? Because laws are made by men and since men are flawed, so are the laws? Or because of the fact that in the 21 st century, media's control over things are slowly being taken away and the power is coming back to the people?

So currently we have the the site being sued by some crap law firm in that the site's engaging in illegal practices. I am really interested to see what outcomes will be achieved.

In the meantime, I am all for P2P. Now I don't care whether the site makes alot of money because it should as hard work = money. I just hope the site doesn't get too greedy and become the total opposite of what it's advocating.

Just on a side note, I'd like to promote two wonderful pieces of softwares that can be found on www.thepiratebay.org and www.mininova.org. The first is something called AnyDVD which basically removes all protection on DVD's which means you can burn it with any approved burners and watch protected DVD's on any DVD player. The second piece of software is DVDFab Platinum which basically copies DVD's and writes them onto your hard drive or onto a blank DVD while removing ALL protection.

Wonderful these softwares aren't they? So just in case you can get your head around what I'm saying, download these two piece of softwares and you'll be set for sometime until Blu-ray wins the format war. So first, if you just want to watch DVD's without protection, download AnyDVD. Now if you want to burn those protected DVDs to save for future viewing, download DVDFab platinum which is a one is all software that removes all protection, copies and burns them onto your hard drive and/or onto blank DVD's. Once you have removed protection, the final disc can be viewed without AnyDVD. So realistically speaking, AnyDVD is really so useful until you decide to burn it. But having both means you're set without a worry and they really go hand in hand so get both.

Of course. the burner software is a bit slow so I suggest you use DVDFab Platinum to copy the contents to the hard drive then burn the unprotected contents onto the DVD with a software such as Nero.

Ok, now having done my piece to help promote P2P, now it's up to you to go download these softwares!! Share!!

The Bigger Picture

2008-02-09T01:51:00.000+08:00

"Diplomacy is about choosing your battles"

That quote is something I'll remember for a long time. That quote also reminds me to think of the bigger picture about everything. In our bid to achieve outcomes, we sometimes neglect the bigger picture of the situation and forget why things are the way they are.

Take the war between Hamas and Israel for example. The war is never going to end if you allow me to have a guess, not until the current generation of leadership dies and replaced by the next crop and even that. No matter how hard Israel punishes Hamas by cutting off electricity and so on, it'll not stop them from trying to attain their ultimate goal: the destruction of the "Zionist enemy". Hamas on the other hand is not going to give up arms and go to the negotiating table because if they do, someone else will come and take their spot as "destroyer of Israel". One, they'll become weak by negotiating and in the face of Muslim fanaticism, their power will be usurped. Two, complacency leads to problems. While I lack the knowledge regarding Middle Eastern affairs, by looking at the bigger picture, it is obvious to see that the war is going be become generational and unless strong and visionary leaders rise from both places, no amount of intervention is going to ensure the end of the bloodshed. Change is the only constant and status quo will be formed and then broken.

I hate to say this but peace in the Middle East is something that won't be achieved in the next few decades. It may be sustained temporarily bu true peace will never come. Religion is not always a good thing.

Moving on to another example, I recently read an article regarding China's aircraft carrier ambition. According to the author, China will unveil its prototype aircraft carrier named Shi Lang after the 2008 Beijing Olympics. In the article, it mentioned about a possible naval confrontation with India over energy supplies and how China may need to have bases in Myanmar AKA Burma. This made me think of why China played a little role in the pressuring of Burma over its human rights abuses. Because it considered the bigger picture. A number of factors must be taken into considerations before China makes any major decisions because in the bigger picture, everything is linked and has repercussions. If China pushed hard to satisfy Western desires, it'll be left with few allies in times of need. Of course, other factors comes into play, not just military but I'll not mention them here.

As I read my article, it seems that nothing is linked and somewhat superficial. It's probably my poor method of expression. The mind turns faster than what I can transpose into written English. If you could step into my mind, perhaps you'll be able to glimpse more than the fraction of what I have written here.

In Memory of Fischer

2008-01-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

Alas, the world has seen the passing away of another "larger than life" individual. This time, it's the famous or some would like to call him, infamous chess master, Robert James Fischer - AKA Bobby Fischer.

If you are unfamiliar with the game, I suggest you browse google or wikipedia, it's a delightful game to learn.

Chess has always been a hobby of mine since I was a kid. I've always been fascinated by strategy games; how one person can manipulate an entire scenario to his or her own will and "out-strat" your opponent.

The passing of Fischer is a shame truly. It can be said that he was a man who brought Chess to the world scene. Whatever he has done in the Chess arena whether it was good or bad, influenced the game. Now I don't care about his personal issues, I'm only saying about everything he has achieved in the game. The controversies he has generated whether they are good or bad doesn't matter, the fact that he generated controversy helped Chess to have a foot-hold among world sports.

If you have read an article by CNN, the former world champion Kasparov is said to have commented as following on Fischer's death: "The tragedy is that he left this world too early, and his extravagant life and scandalous statements did not contribute to the popularity of chess," former champion Kasparov told The Associated Press."

This really pissed me off. I am going to direct my future comments at Kasparov and pretend he is reading this.

"You, sir, are an idiot. Provided what you have written is true, you are not only an idiot but a fool and a moron who may be good at chess but lacks foresight at many other things. My respect for you have reduced to pretty much nil. Your games are crap, have no style and are simply boring. Your reign as world champion didn't bring that much to the chess world either so stfu. I'm glad you got your ass kicked by Putin because Russia may not need or want a western democracy as preached by you so you should take your dumb ass self and go somewhere, like for example the compost dump because you are history and while I enjoy reading history, have a very disdainful regard for losers in history."

Ok, now that I have vented my anger, time to re-direct my energy back to Fischer. I don't care whether he is American or anti-semitic, that's his own belief. I do care about his genius and the fact the game owes alot to him. All great people have faults, no one is perfect and so it should remain. Now that he has passed, his legacy as one of the world best and most controversial chess characters will no doubtly be immortalised. Like the formula China used on Chairman Mao, let's just say he was 70% correct and 30% wrong.

Rest in peace Mr. Fischer. Rest well in knowing that you have left you footprint on this world and you have done something useful for humanity.

Who created the universe?

2007-12-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

Well, my fellow blogging associates, long time no see. It's been a while but my exams has ended and finally got some free time :)

Did I tell you all? My birthday was on the 18th, I am 20 now... How sad lol... I won't bored everyone with useless information about my progress since the exams, nothing exciting happening - Though I am doing management at my food preparation facility lol, I get to wear a blue shirt and eat free food lol....

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Getting down to business, this morning I was reading the news on my mobile and I read an article quoting some astronomer as saying that looking through a telescope is alike going back in time, that is, you are looking at things light years away... I was thinking, but isn't light years a measure for distance not time? Weird...

Then I got thinking again, universe, who created universe? This is one of the biggest mysteries in our world and perhaps something we'll never be able to figure out. Then I got thinking again, which came first, the chicken or the egg? Well, this is a simple one isn't it? There's a greater chance the egg came first due to genetic mutation which caused the creation of the chicken...

But then going back to the creation of the universe, just how can it be "created"? It can't can it? It can't just be there either or can it? The more I think, the bigger my headache is getting so I decided to share this wonderful headache with you all - again since all of you possibly have encountered this question before...

So have a think and answer the following questions, let's see the brainstorming capabilities of you all!

1) What or who created the universe?

2) If it was not created, how did it come into existence?

3) Was it just there and if so, why?

P.S. Good to see everyone is so active with all your blog posts! AND an early merry xmas!

Exam - Again

2007-11-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

Time of the year: 3rd year Exams.

Fun times at university, one exam on Friday and one exam next week Thursday.

Wish me luck...

P.S. Planning to do honors, my average is currently 75%, plenty enough I think. Any tips or advice as to what I should do my thesis in if I do undertake honor? I'm doing Human Resource Management and Management.

Ok, gtg, whole day of cramming tommorrow!

Wish me luck with all your hearts and magical charms, will visit all you guys in a few days time!!

Shan

Be The Blog Award

2007-11-12T02:43:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Amel for recently awarding me the "Be the Blog" award.

Normally, I'd hate to take an award that is meaningless because it's just a piece of code with colors. But the award Amel has given me is something special because it awards people who have been there with their blog and made it a success over it and just had fun.

This is especially true for me. This blog was originally a creative outlet for me that really catered for my own views and what I thought day in and day out. Over time, I found it impossible to shut myself in the blogsphere and hence began networking with various people and today, I have made many friends.

I have kept my network because because I find it pointless to have a huge blogroll and not being able to have a personal connection with these people and I am proud to say that I do with my current network and I have had alot of fun writing my thoughts, reading everyone's replies and visiting all of your wonderful blogs.

So I would like to take this moment and thank everyone for being with me through the past months, really, it has been fun and I have learnt more about people and the world through this period than I would have normally done. It's been a most wonderful experience.

And thank you Amel for making me post this corny statement of thanks to everyone haha!

In return, I would like to award this to a few special people myself:

1) Deadpool - Buddy, your blog is a unique piece of work. Keep the originality up!

2) Zhu - Needless to say, wonderful.

3) Jeff - If you want to learn a thing or two about life, come have a look here :)

The creator of this award is Mark and he has three different colors. Go pick your favorite colors :)

38 Things About Me

2007-11-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

Max has tagged me for 38 things about me. So here it is. Be warned, I am boring.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? Hmmm, unfortunately, it was the computer, ok, it's not a person but then again that's that...
2. What were you doing at 0800? Damn, just went to bed after a entire day of youtubing...
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Watching a video on Lee Hyori and Jessica Alba. What hot women, damn!
4. What happened to you in 2006? Why not 2007?
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? The question makes no sense...
6. How many beverages did you have today? Water, Fanta, Pepsi
7. What color is your hairbrush? What's a hairbrush? Is pink a suitable answer?
8. What was the last thing you paid for? I don't pay for things, people pay me.
9. Where were you last night? At home.
10. What color is your front door? Brown.
11. Where do you keep your change? My wallet.
12. What's the weather like today? Damned hot! 36 degrees!
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor? Paddle Pop Rainbow!!
14. What excites you? Watching Lee Hyori dancing and smiling :P
15. Do you want to cut your hair? Yeah.
16. Are you over the age of 25? No :)
17. Do you talk a lot? I voice my opinions when I feel it is necessary to ensure that the voice of good is being heard :)
18. Do you watch the O.C.? Yeah, bunch of bimbos in my view lol...
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? lol, yeah.
20. Do you make up your own words? All the timeszzzzzeszzz.
21. Are you a jealous person? Yep, very very jealous and possessive and insecure.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A' Aaron.
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K' None.
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? I can't remember.
25. What does the last text message you received say? Errr, some marketing msg.
26. Do you chew on your straw? Straw? What the heck...
27. Do you have curly hair? Nope.
28. Where's the next place you’re going to? The bathroom and then my study room.
29. Who's the rudest person in your life? Some bitch working at work and some bitch at a sunglass shop.
30. What was the last thing you ate? Rice.
31. Will you get married in the future? Marriage is a thing of the past. Today, it's all about polygamy and harems.
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? Musa and Battle of Wits. They're Korean and Chinese films.
33. Is there anyone you like right now? Lee Hyori. She goddamn hot!
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? Can't remember. I love my mum. Hi MUM!
35. Are you currently depressed? I am always depressed. Depression is something that not everyone can have. I am proud.
36. Did you cry today? No but I shoudl...
37. Why did you answer and post this? Very Very good question. THis questions makes me feel like an idiot... lol And where is the 38th question?
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey. If you wanna have some fun, then it's everyone on my favorite blog reads. Do it, it's not as boring as you think.

This includes you MAX and Amel! Yeah, I know you guys did 38 before but being tagged again means you should do another 38 lol... I am mean, what can you do.

The Game... Or An Illusion?

2007-11-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

I sit here in front of my quiet, newly customised computer pondering... The night is quiet, there is a light breeze slipping into my room and my folks are asleep. A great evening to think.

I just had to write this.

I have just finished reading a most insightful, interesting and eye-opening book in my life. This is not something I admit readily for I have read hundreds of books, possibly into the thousands and this book, despite its non-conventional nature comes out very high on my list of good reads. Of course, it's not as well woven like that of Jeffery Archer nor have the characteristic flow of a Jack Higgins but just the nature and the message of the book makes you feel enlightened.

The book is called "The Game" by Neil Strauss. Most people outside of US probably have not heard of it but the title itself pretty much gives away its content and I believe most people would understand what "The Game" means.

Putting it simply, it's a catch phrase for men (or women) who engages in activities to pursue the opposite (or even the same) sex. In other words, these guys plays the game by using a range of tactics and strategies to ensnare their "prey", screw them and then discard them. Men who plays the game are called "Players" and women are often called "Playettes", however also acknowledged as 'hos (whores), sluts, tramps etc etc.

SO this book details the transformation of a man, an insecure man called Neil Strauss who "penetrates" or rather joins the society of pick-up artists (PUA), learn from the, creates an alternative self called "Style" and using Style to become a Player.

Throughout his journey, he meets various mPUA's (Master Pick-up Artists) such as David DeAngelo, Ross Jefferies and of course, the infamous or rather famous Mystery himself. He learns from each of these artists who have their own method such as "Speed Seduction" or the "Mystery Method". He also goes on various seminars and workshops throughout the world including Perth and teaches various Average Frustrated Chumps (AFC's) how to pick up women and play the game... Finally he creates his own method combined from all these artists and he now calls himself the world's best pickup artist.

The book create 11 chapters with the process of picking up and includes select a target to demonstrate value to blasting last minute resistance. According to Strauss, from the moment he decides to pick up his target and to sex, the duration is anywhere between the same day to the time he calls her. Of course, like any good story, he always succeeds and never fails until the last girl who he marries hahaha! Somewhat unrealistic but definitely a good read!

If you read it, you'll know what I mean by very interesting. It is a best seller on Amazon and so it should be.

Firstly, I want to outline the good points of the book. One, it's a good read and provides a very good background of how to improve self image and becoming a player hahaha! (Spend money, spend time and it would seem that every guy can become a Player lol). Two, the messages are good and as much degrading it is to women, the ultimate message is very good.

Now moving onto the bad points. One, it never details any failures and this somewhat accentuates the true nature of the book, that is, it's designed to excite and convey a message. In reality, despite this guy's successes, I am pretty sure he would have failed and in those failures, killed his own self-morale even more and made him want to try harder to do something that bears little practicality on life. Two, it is highly encouraging to guys to .. well.. become a player. Due to the fact that the book does not detail any failures, it kind of idolise this guy and makes everyone feel that by trying, everyone can become a player and I seriously doubt this. This has a negative side as guy will try and burn and this burning will lead them to more failures and ultimately, possible self-destruction. Of course, persistence is good and trying gives a guy a better chance than none but the way this guy details is really a hilarious way to pick-up women.

Then again, I am failing to neglect the fact that all his pick-ups are restricted to club girls or strip club girls and rarely any outside of these places. According to him, picking up intelligent girls are easier than party-happy girls with attention deficit disorder, yet he seems to pick up girls in clubs with ADD lol!

Finally, this is degrading to women. He sends across a message that ALL women are the same and that they want excitement from their otherwise mundane lives. Pretty much in the earlier parts of the book, he is saying that he can pick up any women no matter what their background as he can provide them with fun and well... excitement lol! This is illustrated by the fact that he managed to pick-up the girlfriend of his best friend in Belgrade, amusing no?

Now, this kind of makes a guy including me very much disillusioned in the female species because by rationality, I feel that in many ways, what he is saying is true and as much as I want to believe otherwise, he has an advantage over other guys.

Of course, he makes up for this near the end by saying that as degrading and degenerating the game is having on his life, the boost in self-confidence is extremely important and I feel this is possibly the most important message he has to convey to all guys.

Girls will always be girls and no matter how hard we try, their thinking process will always be the same and they will always want something a guy like him can provide. So the only thing guys who does not want to become players to do is be self-confident, do his best to be himself and hope to god that a girl can see this and be attracted for what he is, not a game he has created to ultimately screw her. Because confidence allows you to attract others and from reading this book, I realised that we all need to be more confident. I have known that everyone is insecure in their own ways but that to attract someone who can love you for who you are and be with you for the rest of yourself, you need to be confident and be who you are. If they want excitement or something you can't offer, then let them go to guys who can provide this and be happy, or just get screwed and tossed away. Of course, I am not saying to surrender because by being confident and being yourself means doing things that are more exciting and this can be done by being yourself I feel. Confidence is really the game, not just routine, lines, set-openers, closers and sex. While sex is always good, it's not the only thing.

At this stage, I feel like I am trying to convince myself that we guys who does not want to become players or we guys who can't be players (I think I can if I tried hard enough or spent enough money but that's not who I am and not someone who I want to be...). So I'll leave you with the final comments in the book by the "man" himself to think about.

"... And though I learned everything there is about attraction, seduction and courtship in the past two years, I learned nothing about maintaining a healthy relationship. Being together has required alot more time and work than learning to pickup women ever did, but it has brought me far greater satisfaction and joy. Perhaps that's because it is not a game"

Hahaha, so in conclusion, guess what, reading that must be some kind of epiphany for people I reckon. So let's summarise my various random thought and just condense them. I feel the book is good and that learning how to pick-up women is not a bad thing. It improves your chances of dating and being together with someone. However, I feel that it is wise not to trust everything that is being conveyed by the book because well, it is to generate controversy and excitement after-all. So by all means try to become a player, but use the skills for good, that is to obtaining and maintaining a relationship, not to screw women and use them. I am sure the author agrees with me on this and he himself, is a very manipulative person I think haha!

In my closing words, sometimes, being the best, the wise, or in this case, the master of pick-up does not mean they are "the one" because in the end, we are all human and being human means
that we all can be wrong. As the quote goes, "to err is human but to forgive is divine". As cool as it sounds to become a player, these guys often think they are the shit and this is an illusion in itself because it closes them to further learning and only through learning can be become better. So by all means learn but innovate rather than imitate.

Smile, Be Confident, Be yourself and Improve where possible. That is the game. I'd rather be playing this game than something that has little resemblance in life. Spending my time buying weird clothes, being extremely manipulative, rote learning pick-up lines and drinking into oblivion does not sound as well as having fun with friends, buying nice looking clothes and enjoying the experiences of life.

Then again, this is me and I know what I am capable of, so I guess I am luckier than many.

As I continue writing, I realise how I am just a goddamn think machine. I am continuosly outhinking myself and trying to find arguments to outwit myself and as I type this, I look at it with a huge smirk on my face hahaha!

Opps, now I realised something else, nothing remaining static is good for you, and hence it is impossible for me to draw an ultimate conclusion on my view of this book, the game, becoming a player or just becoming a better self.

My conclusion is that Smile, Be Confident, Be yourself and Improve where possible is the game I want to play. So, I hope anyone who reads this blog will seek out this book, read it and come to your own conclusion.

And oh, being a player does not make a guy any cooler than the rest Just means that the girls they're picking up are probably sluttier and easier lol :P

Until next time, enjoy life!

Insecurity

2007-11-02T19:37:00.000+08:00

Today, I want to have a look at the topic of insecurity, and apply it in particular to myself... A self reflection exercise if you may...

I have realised that these days, I am growing more and more focused on my looks and how I dress and no matter how well I dress, it takes alot of convincing in the mirror to say "yep, you look good". Of course, past experiences has not helped me with resolving this issue either.

So I figured that this arose out of insecurity about myself and I thought, when will I grow out of this? I liked my old self, where I actually thought about life rather than look at mirrors and how others dress. I feel... inferior and crude...

Insecurity is defined by Wikipedia as "a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless"

Sounds very much like me haha, except I have somewhat perfected an outer exterior or "Cool, Calmness and Collected" - Something that I am proud of but something I want to be more true than just a shield...

So in an attempt to somehow help myself, I looked in various places and bought myself a book called The Freud Reader - yeah, the one and only Sigmund Freud, father of psychoanalysis. It's a thick book that details his various essays and I have yet to make a decent progress on it.

But I have stumbled something shorter and more concise in Wikipedia (don't you just love Wikipedia? If one can absorb all it's information, man, imagine what the person will be like!). The thing I stumbled was called Erikson's stages of psychosocial development - Very informative, go have a look!

So, as I read, I figured I have mastered my earlier childhood well.

The first stage question (Birth to 18 months): Where the fuck am I? :P

I am in China, Beijing, proud 3000 years old civilization that contributed to the world the four amazing inventions of papermaking, gunpowder, compass and printing.

The second stage: (1.5 to 3 years): Do I need help from others or not?

I am not sure what I figured when I was 3 years old but today, I realise I need help from others. We all need help from others, united we stand, divided we fall.

The third stage: 3-6 years: How moral am I?

I feel I have strong morals. I have set ideals on what I should and should not do and I have enough self-will to ensure that I carry these out.

The fourth stage: 7-12: Am I good at what I do?

Am I? What am I good at? I am good at nothing. I have no particular skills that I can fall back on, no natural gifts except my mind. I think and I do. That is all I have.

The fifth stage: 12-18: "Who am I, and what is my goal in life?"

Here is a stage that I have yet to complete successfully. I don't know who I am nor what is my goal in life. As a kid, I always wanted to be a businessman, grow rich, be tactit, diplomatic and resourceful in earning alot of money. I want to have mistresses and succeed in life by have money and power. Yet, I am at a stage of my life where I am questioning this. Just who am I and what do I really want out of life? Am I a such dangerous manipulative person who can be very rich or am I just a simple person who is somewhat intelligent, enough to be modest and well off in this life. I need to work on this.

Ok, the rest stages is too complex and I need to truly understand it further so I have bought the book: The Life Cycle Completed: A Review

Go read it, it sounds interesting.

In wrapping up, what has been my point?

y point is that I have yet to discover the source of my insecurity and I need to look further into the area of psychology and understand myself better to progress in life.

My point was to inform you all of the topic of insecurity. Many of you may sometimes, just sometimes, sit there and wonder who you are, what you are doing and just exactly what is wrong with your life. Well, it's time to go on a journey to discover yourself and help yourself avoid the impact of a mid-life crisis.

Until next time, adios amigos!

P.S. Here are the photos :D

Guess Wally! If you can't, count three from the left :)

The room in a minute silence for the decease Chinese girl, Jiao Dan

The party about to get underway!!

Yeah, hot "Indian" dancing girls". Nooo, they're not Indian, they're Chinese. The photos don't do them justice, they're prettier :D

My co-hosts: Cute? Pretty? You Decide...

I am the one in the yellow shirt practising our speech.

Dinner, I think blue suits me...

Guess Who's Back

2007-10-20T04:09:00.000+08:00

Wooo, long time no see everyone!

Hope you're all doing well :) I think it's been a month since my last post, exciting isn't it! I felt refreshed... well kind of if you don't consider the fact I havn't slept for the past 24 hours trying to put together my customised PC, but I did it!!

It's that time of the year for everyone, well students I guess... Assignments flooding in, I have 3 pieces left all due in 2 weeks and then exams 2 weeks after... which I have not revised for... :) I'm lovin' it!!

Something bad happened recently in Perth, a Chinese girl called Jiao Dan from Changsha in China was murdered and sexually assaulted metres from her house... It was very tragic and at this banquet I co-hosted, we observed a minute of silence for her...

Speaking of banquet, I have some wonderful pictures of me co-hosting a 2oo people banquet at the Chinese Commerce Centre in Perth. I'll load them up tomorrow or the day after, or maybe the day after... haha, well when I get the chance, I think you might find it amusing to laugh at my hairstyle, I need a haircut...

On another totally random topic, I've been thinking about insecurity... It's something I have witnessed in everyone and it's quite interesting and I have done some research... I'll get back on everyone on this area and my thoughts :)

Finally but not the least, HOW IS EVERYONE??? I hope you all are doing absolutely fantastic and I have missed blogging and reading all your blogs, simply put, I have been lazy and had no time... I am very regretful... I'll make it up when I get a chance :DD

See you in a few days!!! With lots of pictures and exotic (and sexually alluring) Chinese Indian Dancing Girls!!! Yeah, you heard it, Chinese Indian dancing girl pictures at the banquet, ooo, belly dancing, sexy :P

P.S. Amel, DP, Mich, Max, thanks for checking up, missed your posts. Fun and Delightful, Hilarious and Outrageous, Thoughtful Yet Sincere and Mind Boggling.

Almost Quiet

2007-09-22T08:07:00.000+08:00

I hope you are all doing well, greetings to everyone on my blogroll (Amel, Choc Mint Girl, Zhu, Crow's Feet, DP, Evil, Max, Monday Morning Power, PFC, Jeff)..

I just finished visiting everyones blogs and it seems it's like that for everyone. People seems to have began blogging less so I guess it's that time of the year for everyone isn't it? Haha, don't work too hard ladies and gents, enjoy life a bit.

These days, it seems I am losing my thinking abilities. I don't seem to be able to theorise about the many things in life anymore and I feel a bit disappointed as to why. I want to do that but everything seems to revolve about how to better manage my time and use it to better to get my life moving faster than it is - for example, getting a better job, studying harder, earning more money to have a trip around Asia, and even how to take out a mortgage. And I am only 19...

I feel old.

So I began to think why? Then I realised it's really the environment and the people you surround yourself with. They play a major part on how you think and what you want to do.

It's good, very good so don't get me wrong, a bit tiring and time consuming but it's making me more mature, think more about the practical issues in life which in many ways are more useful than me theorising because to theorise, I must have time haha!

So I am going to enjoy the ride. But of course, with my mind, random things are still gonna pop out so watch out for that odd post about my philosophy of the world huh, haha!

And it's almost spring here, I am looking forward to starting afresh in a new season and I hope everyone will too when spring arrives for you!

For now, I will leave you all with some photos of myself at a banquet. This was the 1st Anniversary of a Chinese Newspaper in Perth called Asia Times. Until next time, work hard and play hard everyone ^_^

Me on the right.

Me on the left.

Me with the glass that has the most amount of wine.

Wanna guess which one is me? Tip: Look for the ugliest one.

Open up the picture fully, she's the prettiest, very pretty actually. Ok, she HOT.

The shot was a mistake actually but I managed to capture it just as she turned and the photo came out ok haha.

Looks good to me :D

Paintball!!

2007-09-10T22:37:00.001+08:00

Hola my friends!!

It's been a week people and I am back again!

So what was I up to? I went paint balling! I decided to put thinking onto a backseat and burn some cash...

So yes, burn cash I did, not much but $150 for 3 hours of fun and blowing people's heads with paint!!

On a sunny morning, me and a bunch of friends went to a place south of Perth called Canning Vale. The center was called WASP Paintball. We arrived at 10am in the morning, suited up and was divided into odd and even numbered teams.

We had some practise shots (my gun jammed, shit weapons) before we hit the field. Not much recoil and fairly accurate provided you calibrate by firing few shots in a row...

The first field we hit was an inflatable field. I was on the even numbered. As we rushed to take our defensive positions, I noticed that there was 3 people lined out from the left of a bunker. So I decided to take some pot shots and guess what? 2 was hit, what a bunch of morons hahaha!

The first game we won 2-0, so easy...

The second game was a jungle course where there was a lot of bushes for hiding and sniping from. In this round, I took my position behind a wall and took shots from this position primarily. Unfortunately in a while, I was the only one left and before I realised it, some guy crawled up behind and shot me in the chest... So sad... The score was 1-1

The third game involved a barrels course. This round, I decided to take an offensive rush through the middle. Good for me since I took a high position early and got a clear view before the other team was ready and still moving. A girl very sadly was too slow and I managed to get a shot on her chest (did you know girls gets body armour? Hell we have less flesh and we don't... so unfair lmao! Then again, we don't need our chests for breeding kids... ^__^) before I crawled down. Then I decided to take the right flank and advance with backup. Unfortunately the defense was camping (like always, damned campers) and I got hit 3 times from the left AND the right flank defense and dropped out... The score was 0-2

The fourth game involved defending a fortress. We were invading the first round and our team encircled the entire fortress totally. The defense are not allowed out so we had an huge advantage. After 5 minutes of camping, I crawled and ran up next to the wall and started clearing out the defense. Once you are next to the wall, it's virtually impossible for defense to take you out unless they knew your positions. So the result was obvious, we totally killed! The score was 1-1

We defended in the second half and unfortunately, what I did happened to me and I got headshotted by a blue ball, very very sad...

The fifth game involved a speedrun with obstacles close to each other. The aim is to rush, take out as much of the enemy as you can and then camp and pick off. I went into sniper mode and just crawled into a bush area and just sniped. With a clear view and obstacles left and right, I had much cover and took out 2 players before I got hit in the arm as I moved positions... The score was 0-2

The hard part was that the helmet kept fogging up which was shit since without clear view, you can't shoot shit...

So before I wrap this post up, let me offer some tips before I forget!

1) On the word go, rush and take your positions on either the left or the right flank. Middle is dangerous unless there is a lot of obstacles to keep you safe.

2) The start of the game relies heavily on camping and sniping from your position.

3) Once a few players has been taken out, then advance and leapfrog should you have a partner. Always run zig zag and behind covers. Check your exposed side for any campers when moving or shooting.

4) Once you have found a new position, snipe away. Ensure your head pops out from different places when looking. Ensure you legs and arms are behind cover. Expose your head for no more than 3 seconds. Pop out at one place, survey enemy positions, pop out from a different location of the barrier and shoot. Adopt guerrilla warfare :)

5) Ensure when you are moving, your weapons are held level.

6) The game relies heavily on camping and sniping and only you should go on the offensive at the end with few players. However, changing positions is important but not necessarily forward :) Change on your sides and be careful of snipers and surprise attacks.

7) Wear thick clothing, drink lots of energy drinks, have fun and oh, bring $ haha. It cost me $50 for 300 rounds and on average, I blew 100 round per game which consists of two parts :) It was worth it since I took out at least 10 players. I had a 10-5 kill ratio so it wasn't too bad for a total amateur. Still, we lost 4-6 to the odd team but we can't help it, they had some professionals who had $450 customized weapons that was lighter and more accurate and the guys was way more experienced... Still, it was hell fun and we all enjoyed it!! Can't wait until the next time!!

Paintball: Worth living for, worth dying for, worthwhile getting headshots for, Amen!

BTW here's some pictures:

Find Wally: I am on the row that is standing. Count front the right. See that guy with the mask and dog tag on? No that's not me, see the guy standing to him? Yeah that's me. Or if you are still confused, look at the back row (the standing row) and count from the left. I am the sixth one with that big grin...

Here's a closer up picture of me posing. I tried be angry... I am the guy on the right, not the left...

Me trying to be neutral against these two happy hippies and their "Asian" V signs... I'll be more Asian than most "Asians" who claim to be Asians. Damned hippies. Being Asian involves a mind like no other. Just 'cause you're making a V doesn't make you Asian. Damned hippies... Ok, enough about hippies.. Damned hippies :P

Another one of me on the right. It seems I happen to like the right... You think the girl is pretty? Some of my friends think she is... But I give her 6/10. Am I shallow? Ah well, I am shallow then... I hope she is not reading my blog... If so, this is NOT my blog. It's a blog by some other Asian hippy called Shan... If you are reading by some zillion chance, you are pretty, I am just joking. I'll really give you 50/10. That's ummm 500% :D. Don't be angry, then some girls are prettier when they are angry no? I have no idea what I am talking about, it's the sugar

Me on the left, helmet in hand ready to kick some ass and fire some headshots!

Wanna guess? I'm the one in the middle. To ID, look at my blue collar :)

Sorry I didn't have any photos of me in action. It was rushed during the day and I didn't trust the referees with my camera. Next time, I promise some more photos of me with my gun posing as GI Joe huh :D. Even better, I'll bring me camcorder with someone shooting me in action getting headshots! Bwhahaha! I swear I am damned war-freak. If anything, I was a soldier in my previous life. I have a damned uncanny attraction towards guns and warfare...

Here's some more of me resting at home and eating food... And one of a highway of Perth :P

Yeah, I'm the one sitting on the couch. And yeah, that's one of my best friend, the bumblebee lying on the floor on the left. If you can see the right, there is also a red sofa with about 10 fluffy toys lined up ranging from pandas to tigers to rabbits... Very useful friends to have when you need to kick and release some energy lol... P.S. Yeah, that's a bar... We have another one in the games room lined with alcohol :) Jealous? You should be...

Yeah, that's my goldfish... Two sole survivors from the weekly change of water... veterans indeed, I salute them!

Hmmm... now where was this one... Oh yeah, it was a Chinese restaurant in the entertainment area of Perth, Western Australia. Like Roppongi in Japan I think, just a whole lot safer, boring, and dull. And yeah, the girls aren't fantastically beautiful either... I am shallow aren't I? But shhh, no one else knows this but you and me. To others, I am a thoughtful and considerate young man who values loyalty and faithfulness :) It's more useful to my future endeavors whatever they maybe... JUST KIDDING! Don't listen to me. Fidelity and loyalty are something that I value above everything. It's important everyone knows that. Hey look, there is me being the typical Asian hippy and "our" V sign... I am such a damned hippy...

P.S. That is called Steamboat or Huo Guo in Chinese...

A highway in the the typical Perth afternoon.

Ok, that's it from me people. I hope you had fun reading all my "shit" today.

And yeah, I am not a big ass, overweight geek who has no life and talk about life in front of a computer all day :P.

Until next time, enjoy life everyone!!

P.S.S. I scored this in the test I saw from Amel!

What color is your personality?

Your personality is green!

You are a curious, and inquisitive person. You have keen observational skills, and enjoy thinking about words. You are shy sometimes, and enjoy your solitude to reflect on nature.

Click Here to Take This Quiz

Quizzes and Personality Tests

What was yours?!

An Interesting Enlightenment

2007-09-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

Well, something interesting happened today that made me discover or rather reinforce what I have long felt. It's hard to put what I found into exact words so listen to my story and try to understand...

Today, I met a friend on the bus that I haven't seen for a long time. She used to study a same unit with me and I helped her out with some of her problems, and from there developed an interesting friendship.

From the initial point when I spoke to her, I just changed. I am sure we all do to an extent depending on the person we are with but I just changed. I am not exaggerating. I became... well I went into overdrive with my thinking process. I just went hyperactive throwing jokes and conversing like there was no tomorrow. Hard to say what I turned into but something of extreme happiness and friendliness. Time absolutely flied as we found conversation points on absolutely nothing, it was absolutely amazing...

Eventually it ended as we transferred stations. As I walked, I reflected as to what just happened and I realised something.

For guys, certain girls can really bring out the best in you provided the guy has a decent nature to use initially. I mean their (girl) behaviour can really reinforce and take you to a whole new level. The compatibility of people's personalities is quite amazing and I never realised just how amazing until today and I am sure my eyes will be enlightened even more in the near future.

I feel like I have so much more to say but pretty much the gist of what I have discovered is outlined above. That is, guys can change dramatically (well at least I know I can) when with certain girls. Of course, this definitely applies to girls as well... Well I hope so...

I realised that the person I have described above is really who I enjoy being particularly when I am with a lady. I want to be able to make her laugh, to make her carefree and to make her happy. Being a quiet and thoughtful person is something that's useful in business situations but not in others... Hence, I discovered something today from this one girl that I havn't seen for a such long time that reinforced what I have so long felt. Talk about transformative experiences...

I have discovered something about the girl I like being with, the person I like being, the nature of compatibility and finally to cap it off, a quote that I find truly describes how I feel in many ways:

Behind every strong man is a strong woman

A bit cliche but how true... how absolutely true.

You know, I wasn't going to make this post because it sounds so corny yet as I watched a re-run of the movie "Something about Mary" and just something about Cameron Diaz's character set me off and I knew I had to make this summary of what I discovered today. A strong girl makes me a stronger guy while a weaker girl makes me more insecure and less stronger and as I type this, it just sounds so damned true.

Something for the future to remember...

Anyway, am really tired so if my post seems a bit incoherent in some ways, I apologise but if all else fails, just read my quote and you'll get the gist of my post.

Meanwhile, like usual, enjoy LIFE!!

Shan.

P.S. My move in employment certainly brought fruits soon enough! I will be doing two courses soon with one being Basic Management Training (BMT) and the other being Advanced Food Safety (AFS). Looking forward to being a manager, it's about time! It's true people, don't fear change, embrace it and it will bring benefits! Like the saying, if the old don't go, the new won't come :D

Meanwhile, enjoy this beautiful song called Close To You by The Carpenters:

Recap of the Month

2007-08-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone!

It's almost the end of August and as I sit here, I am wondering what I should write. Then I suddenly realised it has been just 6 months since the start of my blog on April 29th, 2007!

You know, it has been an absolutely fantastic 6 months and during this period, most of you have been with me through my ups and downs. During this period, I have found my blog as a wonderful outlet for excessive energy and creative emotions. More so, I have gained many wonderful friends in the world of blogging.

It's been fun so far everyone and I intend to make it better! But all will come in good time haha!

So, let me recap some of my favorite articles in the past six months before August goes into the Archives of History! Lets start with the month of April!

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April:

A New Beginning --> My very first post!

For you said, "love in love" kids out there --> A quite amusing derogatory article. One of my favorites until in time I realised that it takes one to know one hahaha!

May:

Love Is War --> An cursory examination of the concept Love. A little summary I did early in the morning...

Cool or Loser --> Again, my creative juices flowing overtime. I decided to hypothesize and come up with a real definition for the words "cool" and "loser". Everyone must have thought of this sometime in their life right?

Love, Fidelity and the Whole Crazy Thing --> Must I explain? Read it, you'll enjoy it!

Self Discipline --> Something I totally lack of. Maybe the articles I found will help you!

Miss Universe - A Critique --> Hot Asian Babes Critic in Play! My review of the 2006 Miss Universe selection. Be warned ladies, languages may offend!

June (One of the most emotional turbulent eras of my life so far...)

Factors Needed For A Successful Relationship - Part 1 --> Well, I don't need to explain any further. This was something I did out of sheer boredom. Personally, I felt it was one of the best analysis I ever did without any major research hahaha! Of course, the readers thought otherwise... Have a read, you'll laugh for sure!

How Much Heart Should You Put In --> Mammoth article examining how much one should put into a relationship. Something I did when I should have been studying. I think I was a bit tired that day when I wrote it hahaha!

Reality - Harsh Or In Fact Enlightening? --> A turning point in my confused times. I realise once when you look at the reality, many things are easily resolved. It is indeed an enlightment. An epiphany if you like.

Middle Eastern Wars - A Thought and A Prayer --> My thoughts on the invasion of Gaza by the terrorist group Hamas.

July

Trust --> A betrayal that stung me quite painfully. Something I will never forget. That day is a day that will come to influence my thoughts for a long time. A disillusionment with the human race (females in particular)...

8 Things About Me --> Want to learn more about this shallow, insecure, sex obsessed weirdo? Read on!

A Short Poem --> If you can understand the meaning of the poem, then I don't need to explain. It's all there in 4 simple sentences...

August

Disillusionment --> One of the recent topics that touched on my nerves a bit. Something we all have no doubtly experienced at sometime of our life.

Nostalgic Moment --> A perhaps test for my inner resolve and a test of my existing feelings. I am glad the turbulent times have passed. I don't think I ever want to experience another one like it.

Not Myself --> Most recent article explaining my most recent frustration :P

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Ok, that was a massive recap!! I think I will try to do monthly recaps from now on rather than every 6 months hahaha!

But you know, going through the archives brought back a lot of interesting memories. My blog has became something like a diary hasn't it? I think it's a good thing provided I learn from it. After all, knowledge is what makes us who we are!

Hope you all will have found something interesting you haven't seen before!

Best wishes!

Shan.

Not Myself...

2007-08-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

Today has been interesting...

Firstly I had work. Secondly I had dinner at a Korean restaurant with a beautiful lady in green.

Yet throughout the entire evening, I did not feel like myself. I have no words to describe my feelings... It's a mixture of regret, discomfort and emptiness I think...

I have no idea why: The company was fabulous, the night was cool and comforting and so was the food. Yet I am unable to show my true self, the perhaps happy and exciting side. The witty side.

A friend once told me that it's because I am nervous, afraid of doing something wrong and in a way, it is true though consciously I did not feel this way.

Things I have said and done tonight was ... well rude in hindsight. I realise I do these things to protect my fragile innerself, to protect my own insecurity. The friend wants a cheerful company and I was unable to provide 100%, maybe just 70%... I feel regrettable about this and in many ways sorry.

I just came to a sudden realisation that it's a defence mechanism exhibited by my mind. To hurt and to attack before I get hurt or attacked. I can't believe I didn't realise this earlier, it's been so obvious...

Ahhh it seems I have difficulty in stopping this... it's quite difficult... The only good solution I can think of is think well before I talk and be more withheld. Yet somehow, I think I'll still end up feeling empty...

For now, I'll do my best in being more careful with my words. That is, if I have nothing good to say, don't say anything.

You know, it's funny that in hindsight, I was never like this before with this lady. It's been only in the recent times I have turned this way. My mind, it's damned interesting...

Lady in green, if you are reading this, I promise you I'll do my utmost to be myself and as a better company next time!

Thanks for listening me rant everyone, please feel free to offer advices, comments or the occasional abuse lol. They say we grow through suffering, how damned true it is hahaha!

See you all soon!

Shan.

What Do You Get For A Girl's Birthday?

2007-08-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

Ahh just a quick post before I head off to bed.

Simple question, what do you get for a girl's birthday? Someone asked me recently and I had absolutely no idea. I hastily made up some answer along the lines of "oh that's easy, get her flowers and get a her "saying it with flowers book". I figured that was a smart move since it made me sound like I knew what I was talking about and was an appropriate answer... lol...

Maybe not in hindsight...

But it is a good question isn't it and it would depend on the length you know the girl right? As a friend, what can you get? Jewelry is somewhat unsuitable and expensive. What about shoes or clothes? Purse? Perfume?

Alcohol? Uhhhh, maybe not...

But what can you get that will guarantee it being actually utilised for the purpose it was designed and bought for rather than being tossed somewhere in the maze of a girl's bedroom?

How about some sex toy? I recently visited this sex shop called "Libido" in Perth with some people and saw this 10" dildo for uhh, didn't see the price... Ummm ok, this was inappropriate but apologies, just trying to cover all my bases lol... Please ignore my weird remark... It's DP's fault, his wacky remarks is infectious... blame him!

Yeeaaahh, so get back to me on this one people lol, what do you get for a girls birthday and what factors should you consider?

Looking forward to some wise replies as usual!

Shan!

A Nostalgic Moment

2007-08-22T20:11:00.000+08:00

As I finished work today, I climbed down the stairs and began a short trip towards the train station. As I walked, a tiny drizzle of rain began coming down from the cloudy sky, slowly but steadily.

I was engrossed much in my thoughts until I realised I had walked by a very familiar shop, a shop that I had worked for the past 2 years. As I glanced inside, I noticed many familiar faces with a most notable one in a blue shirt.

My heart began to pound as I pondered whether I should go in and say hi. Many things suddenly rushed through my mind and I had a small sense of nostalgia. Then I realised something important and I began to walk away, in a way like the rain, slowly but surely.

In this life, there are some things that are can't be explained by science. Sometimes the only explaination we have is reality or maybe the reality we want...

Sometimes, some of us are just luckier than the rest and they don't even know it...

On a lighter note, I recently subscribed to the newsmagazine, TIME for one year. I have absolutely no idea why but like the thing with the jade, I suddenly developed a fascination and just felt somewhat compelled to buy it. I figured one whole year of in-depth knowledge about world events is world a mere A$139. It makes a good combination to my mobile news which is good and frequent but simple.

What do you think? Worth it?

Hope you enjoyed this post and it made you think a bit...

Best wishes and sweet living everyone... Shan.

Surprise!

2007-08-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

Ahhh, neglected haha.

Firstly, a big thank you to everyone who has been checking my blog. I know it's been a while but things have been a bit too much in the past 2 weeks. I have been visiting everyone's blogs from various locations and they have been interesting!

So, a bit of update of my life. University is settling down and so is the jobs. And yeah, that is pretty much it hahaha.

But let's move onto something I recently began to think of and that's the Y generation and their ability to plan. Well, ability to plan is not exactly what I was thinking but let me explain a bit further.

I was recently have a chat with a friend at university just before a lecture about his business and the plans for his future. He is 26, has a fast food business in China and his wife is having their first child on the weekend (Good luck!). As I was talking to him, we eventually moved onto what I planned for my future. When I outlined a very rough one to him, he surprised me by saying how nice it is to see someone so young to have a such plan.

My first initial reaction was "no, he is flattering me way too much - what a good ego stroker". But he outlined why he thought so and I then began to think of my conversations with a number of young people - which somewhat confirmed what he said:

Young people today has no plans for their future. They are not ambitious enough, content with a secure job and fairly good pay and then ultimately partying.

Of course, I am not saying partying is a bad thing since "enjoy life" is my motto but when you are between the age of 18 to 25, this is where everything begins. If you do not start to plan and work hard to allow those plans to become reality, in time, you'll realise how your youth has been wasted on activities that proved to be absolutely non-essential to your future. In other words, you will regret it. Or maybe it's just me, I am not content with what I have and I kind of get bored with things after a while. I need new and exciting things... My attention span is too low...

You know, sometimes, as I walk through the city of Perth at the nights (or even during the days), I see these bums and I feel this surge of sympathy and fear. Sympathy because I feel sorry for them and fear because I don't want to become them.

Of course, I could just lay back, find a decent job, take out a mortgage, get married and then support the wife and the house for the next 20 years. But somehow, I just don't think I can do that. My personality doesn't quite lend itself to such ideals. While all of us want to do that in some ways, when I see successful people with good clothes and cars and jewelery, I kind of feel inadequate and in another way regret. Regret because if I don't take advantage of opportunities arising for me or don't create opportunities for myself, then I will never be able to do that.

Moreover, for those of you who remember some of my first blogs, I intend to treat my future wife like a queen but to do that, I need the dough hahaha!

Ok, I feel I have nagged enough and reassured myself enough lol... So moving onto a lighter note, let's talk about jade.

Recently, I have developed a sudden fascination with jade, or rather, high quality jade. I have heard from people top quality jade are able to transform when worn with a person for a while. It's lines adapt to the body when worn over time. If anyone knows how or where to buy one, feel free to leave a comment :)

I will endeavour to make more posts each week!

Best wishes and enjoy life everyone!

A New Thought

2007-08-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

These days it seems I am undergoing some interesting growth...

I believe I am, as a person, becoming more cynical, becoming more selfish, becoming more focused on my own gains above all. My thought process seems to be hardening, becoming somewhat more ruthless, well, when necessary of course.

I have been thinking and wondering why and I can't seem to find an answer except the people that I am associating with. Don't get me wrong, it's a good thing of course :)

On a lighter note, work is really so crap. Two jobs plus uni is really becoming a burden on me. Not that it's a bad thing, more money for me and I get to meet more lovely Asian ladies.

It seems I have absolutely nothing more interesting to say. Yeah, it seems my capacity to think is becoming increasingly limited. But it also seems in recent times my capacity to bullshit random stuff under pressure is becoming quite good. I think that'll be a good tool to use in my future endeavors whatever they may be.

Oh yeah, I had a wonderful evening with a most lovely lady. I thank you for the pleasure princess ^_^

Until next time, have a good night (or day) ladies and gents. Enjoy life!

Disillusionment

2007-08-01T02:13:00.000+08:00

So I sit here, 2 AM in the morning thinking.

Finally, I found some time to read the wonderful blogs of my blogging associates. As I read each one carefully, I realise just how diverse but similar we are in our thought patterns... Similarly, a pattern emerged for me...

My friend DP for example, blogged about his Resident Evil experiences. On another hand, Amel blogged about some of the wonderful things that recently happened in her life. Zhu decided to focus on her past travel experiences while Max likewise focused on her husband and her experience of being married. Jeff did his NEWSFLASH while to round things off, Michelle posted a beautiful video.

We are different in the areas we blog but what we ultimately do is that we blog our experiences. We write down our experiences for others to see, to comment and perhaps, to understand.

Me? I do the same. Well, most of the times. Today, I am going to blog about my disillusionment with the female species. The topic? Betrayal of trust. It seems everything I see these days have a degree of betrayal in them. I recently watched the movie "Minority Report" where the guy stabs his wife or wanted to for sleeping with a stranger. That kind of capped off everything I have heard and in a weird way, experienced.

Help me here because I don't understand. Why do people betray the trust of others? If you can't be honest, then be fucking straight and make the point clear: "I can't be honest with you". It's not hard. You know what the conclusion I came down to? A fucking lack of moral ethics and a poor damned upbringing. It's true, not everyone is created equal but for christ sake, have a code of honor is not so hard to follow is it?

I recently read what Jeff wrote about disillusionment. You give someone your trust, you expect it to be betrayed. I came to summarize it as: Trust is there to be betrayed. You know, these days, I am turning into a major cynic or rather, pessimistic person. I can't help it, the human race and the experience of growing up and associating with people is making me turn into that. It's absolutely true what an old Chinese adage went: By nature, all men (and women) is good.

But we are corrupted by the people we associate with, the environment we live in and the things we see and hear. Under such adversity, we simply can't stand the tide but turn in the corrupt things we want to repel. Disillusionment with the female species is kind of turning me into someone who can't uphold what he swore to never do. Associating with people who reinforce that disillusionment doesn't help.

What is the solution? Find people who can help you turn that tide. But that is a little catch 22 isn't it? You would still trust people to help you but what if they betray you? Ahhhh...

What's the solution? We trust ourselves? We betray others before they can betray us? We hurt them first? We put up a shield that no one can get through fully? It's an endless circle of riddles...

The only answer I came to was trust the mind and it's values and beliefs over the heart under all situations. Analyse situations and factors in your position and the position of the other person. Make a judgment and follow that judgment. That way, any betrayal of trust will likely be anticipated and if not, have less impact on yourself.

But let me know YOUR solution. DO you have a solution that will resolve this kind of dilemma?

Until next time, I hope you are resting well and not thinking too much like me because frankly, I am tired. Enjoy life...

Almost Judgement Day

2007-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

Well everyone, today is Friday. It is 10:32 PM in Perth, GM +8:00. What am I trying to say? That university is coming to back in roughly in 2 days. This means the follow: assignments, deadlines, group meetings, lack of sleep, cramming, expenditure of money on food. Yes, it is very painful and very, very boring. I wanna die. But ok, enough about my death wishes, let's talk about something good.

Good thing number 1: I had dinner with a most wonderful Korean host (fabulous personality, so cheerful and bubbly). It was superbly delightful. It was Korean BBQ, you know, one of those tables with a grill for coal in it that BBQ the meat. Kinda interesting except the slowness of eating kind of made me more hungry, should have went to a place that had cooked meat lol. The food was like lettuce wrapped with BBQ meat along with soybean sauce and rice. Tasty but not enough as main dish, more like an appetizer...

On an interesting note, I was observing the waitresses. I was so tempted to ask one of them the following question: "Did you have plastic surgery?" haha. I think I would have been abused if I asked that question so I felt it was best left alone. But the beauty of the waitress was very impressive. Hmmm, what if I linked that up? "Are you sure you didn't have plastic surgery because you look absolutely fabulous" ---> Lol, yeah that'll have worked and got a laugh out of her :P

Good thing number 2: Ummm, can't think of any. I can't classify work as good thing. Well, saw Blood Diamond. Fantastic movie, very ahh moving. Leonardo Di Caprio is a good actor.

On a bad side of things: I suck at karaoke. Yeah, I am crap. But I am absolutely surprised at the ability of others to sing them. More amazingly, their memories of the tunes are most impressive.

Finally to conclude my rambling, I would like to mention a self discovery. On the way back home, I thought about a few things and I realised out of nowhere my primary emotional need and that is security. Then again, don't we all? I realised unless I can have security, I will never be satisfied nor happy. Another thing, these days, thinking absolutely tires me. I think I need to start reducing my time spent in thought, it's tiring. Don't you ever just get a period of time where you just want to stop thinking and looking for hidden messages in everything people say or do and just enjoy life? Well, it seems I'm going through that period. Time to think less and act even less, I think it's better for my health and brain :D

What is your primary emotional need? Can one word describe it or you need more?

Time for sleep, more money earning tomorrow *yawn*. Enjoy life ladies and gentlemen and oh, laugh!

Shan.

Shopping Day

2007-07-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

Well, how's everyone been. It seems my blog is turning into my daily diary lol but I think everyone maybe find that more interesting than my daily rambles :P

Anyway, today was a rare day off for me and I spent it productively... sort of productively... Had morning tea (dim sum or 早茶) with a friend. Food was not extremely outstanding but the waitresses were bwhahaha!

After that, I decide to go shopping. I had absolutely no money so it was kind of a day wasted (too much drugs for me lol j/k). But as I sat on one of the benches waiting for the bus, I saw this couple. One was a sort of chubby girl and the other, a sort of tall Indonesian dude. As I sat there, I observed one interesting thing. Everytime a pretty girl came by, his eyes would wander and linger on the girl. The girl of course, noticed nothing and continued to display her affections for him.

I sat there laughing to myself... I then began to think... "Buddy, if you are not satisfied with what you have got, then why continue... It's going to end up with disappointment for the girl so why don't you stop before it's too late".

It's better to really start a relationship when both are fully satisfied with each other's physical appearance first isn't it? That way, any break ups that may occur is a result of intrinsic incompatibility rather than these ahhh trivial things... (well, sort of trivial if you consider the bigger picture). Ok, enough about this stuff.

University will be starting again in roughly one week so I think I will begin to blog less. I'll keep everyone informed of any major changes in my life (not that there is or will be in the near future lol unless you consider paintballing and diving exciting changes)... So please excuse my absence in anytime soon.

I'll still be reading all your blogs so keep up the hard work everyone!!

Regards and best wishes!

Shan.

P.S. I read an interesting post today at Monday Morning Power. He is on my recommended list. The article is about the power of positive thinking. Interesting, go have a look!

A Sad Sad Day

2007-07-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today, I did a very sad but necessary thing. Remember how I said I was going to defuse a bomb very soon? Well, it was more of a try at defusing the bomb to see whether it was imaginary or real.

Putting what I am saying into context, the bomb is a person (female). Well, a bomb isn't a nice word, I was quite tired last night and that was the best metaphor I could think of... Let's say it was a rose with thorns... I am a person trying to handle that rose and reduce it's barbs to an extent where I can admire it for a lifetime. I hope I made the context clear with this analogy...

So today, I decided to truly see whether I had a chance at reducing the barbs. I had a rough idea of what to expect (The barbs is not reducible, at least not for me or by me...)

The result? As I expected (I guess...): Taking good old Julius Caesar's famous words "I came, I saw, I conquered" and changing it to suit my situation: "I came, I saw, I suffered".

As I walked away, I looked at the skies and felt a very deep sadness. A kind of sadness indescribable by words. Yet in another part of me, I confirmed what I have long felt and is kind of glad things are the way they became because no one lied to each other and did not prolong the situation which could have made it even more saddening... Thinking of things rationally, there really wasn't much of a future... Like the rose said once, we are two worlds apart. Haha, funny how fate is isn't it :)

As I walked, I saw a number of beauties yet rather than admiring them like usual (:P), I felt funny... I felt that they were so ordinary, so ... stupid and boring compared to the rose with thorns I knew. I am guessing this is how you feel at the end of a situation like this.

To Rose: So I say goodbye to you, a special place in my heart you'll always remain... There was never of a future and it is better this way. Best of wish to you and I am sure you'll find the one you need to grant you eternal happiness.

Goodbye and good luck!

A Day At Work

2007-07-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

Work at new fast food place sucks. Can't be bothered describing it but just that it's generally crap. I think I'm gonna quit in a bit once I settle down in my new job.

I realised trust is a very important thing today. I realised if someone ibroke your trust once, then they will very likely break that trust again. So for trust, it's best not to give them a second chance. Just a bomb waiting to explode... I'm tired of waiting for the bomb to explode, it's going to be defused very very soon.

Sleepy, meeting tomorrow with clients...

'Til next time, have a good nite sleep everyone!

Ahh Neglected

2007-07-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Ahhh, it's most unfortunate that I have not been able to post in some time. There has been ahhh... certain stuff on my mind that I had to sort out and hence my blog has taken a second position.

But it feels good to finally get some time to make a post! If you're ever interested, here's a little update:

Firstly, a decision has been made after much thought and that was to change the location of my job. I am currently working in a ahhh food preparation facility (you know what these fancy titles represent I hope haha) in Perth but after much thought and discussion with some friends, I've decided to change to a place 10 minutes from my house. In making this decision, a number of things have been forsaken in order to achieve a primary objective. This objective is of critical importance and despite all the regret felt by one, it was necessary.

Secondly, in the past few days, my expenditure have went through the room. Yes, in 2 days, I spent $500 with one fifth equating to food... Ok, this doesn't sound much but considering I am a penniless student but it's still painful. It's not that I'm stingy, the company with whom the money was spent on was superbly delightful and a number of intangible goals has been achieved at the cost of $100 so I'd say that's a bargain.

Thirdly, I spent last night playing ma jiang from 9pm all the way to 5am in the morning... Right now, I am feeling extremely tired... and need sleep...

So that has been my exciting life so far albeit a few exclusions that shall remain secrets.

On another note, I found out some interesting things about blood types and a persons personality. Supposedly blood type A people can like something for a long time and be quite persistent while B types lose interest in something after a period of time. As for O types, they're generally weird. I found this damned hilarious except it's kind of true... lol...

Unfortunately, there has not been any rationalisation in the times gone and hence no philosophical thoughts. The cause is quite frustrating. Ever been in a position where your heart is in a fight against the mind, gut and instincts? I am kind of in a position like that haha. Right now, the heart has absolutely no ally. On the other hand, the mind, gut and instincts has my friends as their ally and it's absolutely kicking the ass of the heart. So I leave you with something that I have come to term with and that is under all circumstances, ensure reason overcome ones emotions because that way, you are able to see the reality and fall gracefully...

I hope my mind will rest for a bit, so tired and have to interview some people this Friday, shucks... I'll update more often :D

Enjoy life ladies and gentlemen

A Short Poem

2007-07-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

After browsing through a bit of articles, I stumbled across an interesting short poem by Abraham Cowley. As for who he is, I am not extremely well versed but I found the poem quite interesting...

"A mighty pain to love it is,
And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain."

Quite nice...

Until next time...

A Most Productive Day and Another Random Thought

2007-07-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

Greetings!

Today, has been most productive. It seems I have managed to obtain a position as a recruiter for an employment firm in Perth. After lunch with a friend, me and a few other Chinese colleagues met the boss of this firm and had a very interesting chat. A good firm with decent remuneration and a definite good place to obtain work experience and add to my resume. This is a most delightful surprise and has made me extremely happy. I certainly look forward to learning more and of course, gain some experience and money ^_^. My job will very likely involve tapping into the Chinese market and obtain positions for them in their desired industries. Very interesting except the unknowns. But overall, I have absolutely nothing to lose, I'll make more friends and obtain experience, a win win! And of course, making new friends means meeting more girls woot! More fun! Ahem, enough with that....

Anyway, with that out of the way, let's move onto something that has been on my mind for sometime and that is a saying. Translated into English, it is:

"It is most difficult for a hero to pass through the challenge of a beauty".

It means the most difficult thing for a guy aka hero to overcome in many challenges, is the challenge of a beautiful/charming girl. I've been thinking this recently and it is very true isn't it? Men can be trained to overcome ALOT of heavy punishment, yet when it comes to "seduction" or the "beauty challenge", many will crumble. This led me to think just how weak and fragile we men really are. What is one thing that can absolutely bring men down? Women. I recall in the history of China, an emperor was give the choice of his entire empire or one single girl, not an ordinary girl, but one whom he loved most dearly. Guess which he chose? Yeah, the girl. I know, it's kind of stupid, he could have became the emperor and then changed the rules to suit his desires but let's ignore this. The point is that, love and love ONLY is something that can absolutely make or break a man in his life. Everything else is of course still important, but love is the critical factor above everything.

Have a think and get back to me :). Time for bed, so excited! Enjoy life ladies and gentlemen!

8 Things About Me

2007-07-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Ahh I've been tagged once more to reveal 8 things about myself, this time from my Canadian friend Zhu. Have a look here: Correr Es Mi Destino. I believe I was also tagged by Amel to reveal 8 things about myself as well. Her blog is here: Amel's Realm.

So I'll make it brief :)

1) I have lived in Beijing for the first 9 years of my life. The last 10 years has been in this place called Perth. The contrast is quite surreal coming to think of it now. The most memorable thing was the first breath of air, it was... quite fresh for a lack of better words.

2) I am really lazy.

3) I am a perfectionist. This is quite contradictory to the above but haha, context and situation rules this. Number 3 overrules number 2 is most scenarios.

4) I dislike noisy things. Between a dinner at friends house and a walk along the ocean, I'd choose the latter.

5) I love my German Shepard.

6) I used to breed turtles until they died. Very unfortunate.

7) I have no favorite things. My taste varies depending on the mood I am in which in turn varies alot.

8) I am a Scorpio.

Ok, the above was pretty lame but hey, it's better than nothing. In turn I tag the following people: Amel (ahahahahah, another one for you :P even though this is probably illegal), Max and
our Greek friend, Deadpolite.

I look forward to reading the details and for some, more haha.

Trust

2007-07-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

mmm, today, I came to a interesting understanding about an important thing: trust.

Trust is an important thing isn't it? Over time, one has to give a degree of trust to someone and it is often to the person you feel is worthy and capable of holding that trust. In other words, you can't live without it. It is kind of a crazy paradox. You give your trust expecting whatever you expect in full because you trust that person. But the only thing ensuring that is the moral of that person which you trust even though you have absolute no guarantee.

This brings about another interesting paradox. When you do give your trust, it gets betrayed by the least most expected person often at the most inopportune time. This reminds me of the Murphy's Law which states "whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time". Very amusing I think. To have it betrayed brings both pain and a moment of enlightenment. Then questions come to mind:

"Why didn't I see this?", "How could I be so blind?", "How could I given my trust to such a person?", "What the hell was I thinking?", "I am such a idiot!".

These questions requires answers but often one can't find answers to them and have to suffice with self answers... They say a mistake is only a mistake when it is forgotten... Reminds me of an interesting Russian proverb that goes something along the following lines: "Dwelling on the past cost you one eye. Forgetting the past costs you both". So the conclusion I came to was that if trust is betrayed once, give no second chance because it'll be more painful the second time round correct? Alas, this is easier said than done isn't it?

But I came to realise a betrayal of a trust is not necessarily a bad thing particularly if it is discovered early. It shows twos things at a moment's thought:

1) The person has low morals or is simply incapable and worthy of keeping your trust. Therefore be on guard at all times. The person may not be necessarily bad, just incapable... No matter what you are trusting the person with, once agreed, there is a silent code of honor that needs to be upheld at all cost no? People today seems to have a very weak grasp of this, it is truly pathetic.... and very sad...

2) I forgot the second thing hahaha. But this cake is certainly good. Strawberry with two layers of chocolate stuffed with two layers of cream and an outer wall of choc. cookies... mmm, delicious. Uhhh, anyway back to what I was saying.

I guess the day we find someone we can really trust as a friend or otherwise is the a truly amazing day. I have yet to find that person and I certainly look forward to that day... if it ever comes. Until that day, it is perhaps still better to trust and betrayed than not to trust because otherwise, you may never find out.

But what I am even more interested is what your take on this thing called trust. Tell me about your experience, perhaps a betrayal and how you felt and dealt with it. And how you decided to move on. I'm sure it'll come in handy for me.

See you next time ladies and gentlemen. Shan.

A Thought and A Horoscope

2007-06-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

Ahh, it's been a week since my last post... It's not that I didn't have time, it's just that I simply did not have anything worthwhile on my mind... unfortunately haha.

But today, as I was walking back from the library, I suddenly looked up towards the clouds and I saw a big, murky black patch sitting on the horizon. Rest of the sky was clear blue with a touch of small white clouds and as I looked around, I suddenly realised just how peaceful and tranquil my suburb was... This triggered off another burst of thought, something along the lines of war and peace. I suddenly thought "war and conflict is merely a clash of ideals; nothing more than a conflict between the values and beliefs of the various human races".

This made me think that our mind, or in fact, us the human race are certainly destined for more and that we are simply not at a such advanced phase yet. The day we can achieve world peace (as crazy as this sounds) is truly the day we, as homo sapiens, really succeed in our goals whatever that may be. This is not as far fetched as it seems I believe, in time (provided we don't die off first), evolution will take us to this stage and I am saddened at the fact I will unlikely see this in this lifetime. However, if reincarnation really exists, I certainly hope I will relive again to see that moment; don't you?

On a lighter note, my driving skills is coming along nicely, it seems that everything has come down to mastering control of the clutch release and accelerator depress. I think I've stumbled across the key and I hope in no time, I'll be able to achieve the fluency required. And yes, so much things to do with a car and license, mmm, there'll be certainly a major rise in the level of productivity :D

On another note, I recently read a few "complete profiles" of each of the star signs and boy, was I amazed at the amount of shit those guys can write. I kid you not, those profiles exceeds 5 pages sometimes and while some "hits" the target, some are just random bullshit. Personally, I feel they're an interesting read as long as one don't get too into it. But one thing that caught my attention was the compatibility stuff - very amusing, supposedly, for me, the most compatible signs are Cancer and Pisces and god, if you have ever read the profile of Pisces, you'd think girls in that star signs are the ultimate perfection. If you're interested, just go to Wikipedia and types in Pisces, it's hilarious! And yeah, they provide profiles of boys too, I'm amazed at the degree of accuracy in some cases but I guess that simply illustrates the power of our mind to just "link things up". Just don't forget the Forer effect.

Until next time, enjoy your lives my friends. Here's a motto for all of you to have a think:

Who will guard the guards?

Freedom... At Least For 5 Weeks

2007-06-22T19:57:00.000+08:00

The end of exams... finally after 3 months of full on cramming and stress. What can I say, university is such a waste of time and all for what, a piece of paper.. pfft shit that's what it is. So 5 weeks of rest and it's time to take advantage of this time and get some things accomplished... after some play bwhahaha...

I recently downloaded this Korean drama called "Full House" (11 gb,2 weeks of downloading!!) but it was worth it. A very good drama with average subbing. The genre is comedy and romance and the actors does a superb job, particularly the girls haha... Those Korean girls, omg, what can I say, their beauty exceed their reputation in immeasurable ways. I hate to say this but their beauty probably exceed those of the Chinese girls. I don't know what's the term I'm trying to look for but it has something to do with class and refinement I guess. Chinese girls these days, ahhh, for a lack of better words are so couth. Maybe it's not this, I now think it's their brain, yeah that's it. They're TOO SMART or well has TOO MANY "IDEAS", like you know, not academic ideas but just, well, ideas that's perverted, I think you know what I mean. I don't know how other guys feel but I seem to feel it this way... I think innocence and "pure thoughts" is something that's very important in a girl and I guess it's this that I find so appealing. To illustrate what I mean, look at the girl below:

You know, I'm a simple person and it's the simple things in life I enjoy the most. If I ever were able to find a girl that had a similar personality and looks as the girl above and be with her, I think I'll be happy for the rest of my life no matter what situation I am in or what I have. This is quite sad isn't it but I think I am quite able to throw away everything for a girl like that... Maybe this is my "hormones" talking but maybe it's something deeper though whatever it is, I believe in this and will likely to believe in this until that one comes along and when she does, well, everything in this life would have been worthwhile but hey, who am I kidding right? Stories like this only exist in fairytales and this is probably why those fairytales are so popular haha... I'm typing this with a smile on my face listening to Don't Matter by Akon hahaha, good song.

Ok, enough rambling about girls but I'd recommend the series to male & female teenagers between the age of 18-25... But who knows ;)

This break, I have quite a few plans of three which has priority over everything else. The first is to grab my manual license... I would do with an automatic but I just don't feel right. Yet it's so damned frustrating... I seem to suck at balancing the clutch and accelerator, poor car keeps damned stalling... tips anyone?

The second is to learn how to cook. This is pretty simple, my good old mum showed me a basic dish and how to cook rice (yeah, don't laugh, we all start somewhere). Hopefully by the end of the breaks, I'll be able to know how to cook between 10-20 traditional Chinese cuisines so I can feed myself.

The third is to schedule myself into order and begin a exercise regime. As painful and tiring as this is, watching the drama made me feel I need to help out my figure... I currently weigh about 75 kg and is about hmm (no ruler :( so I'll guess) 175-178 cm. So yeah, a bit overweight so time to get my body into a better state. No, I'm not turning anorexic, I am reaching self actualization thanks very much ^_^.

A fourth priority is to perhaps apply for another job, the current one is boring me and the opportunities for advancement is too low. Anyone has some good resume template they'd recommend me to use?

So yeah, 5 weeks is enough to make my priorities into a habit and I think I might need to keep off the fatty foods except that's gonna be difficult, salads anyone? lol, but I can't survive on salad, I need my meat and I'm sorry for you vegetarians out there... think of it this way, if we didn't eat meat, what would become of animals like cows? They can't survive by themselves...

On another note, I'll be visiting the blogs of everyone on my recommended list and going through your archives so be prepared for a lot of comments lol. So, I'll keep everyone updated on my progress as I tidy up my life. It'll be hard but they say a month is enough to make things into a habit and I am fully determined to do so. I may be pretty lazy but determination I have when the results are something worthwhile. This reminds me of the words of a famous Chinese sage, Confucius: If I fight, I win!

I'm kind like this, if the results are not worthwhile, I can be quite lazy but if I do want something and the results is something obtainable, I will win it. So wish me luck and I hope everyone is enjoying their lives because I will be!

I was wondering, does anyone want to see some pictures of Perth as in the city? If you do, please tell me what kind of things you want to see like churches, parks, universities, shops or natural beauties? I'll endeavour to take some photos and host them up :)

Until next time, zai jian! (Chinese for see you next time!)

Middle Eastern Wars - My Thoughts and A Prayer

2007-06-17T15:11:00.000+08:00

Well, I woke up today aiming to get some studying done. So I began my normal routine, brushing teeth and washing face then having some breakfast. Then I turned on the TV and went into the Chinese channel Phoenix. Guess what I saw? Yeah you'll probably have guessed it from my heading, the current ongoing conflict between Hamas and Fatah.

So here I am, sitting on my couch watching these Hamas dudes in Gaza wearing balaclavas and holding Kalashnikovs in their hands, some on top of roofs with their green flag, some near checkpoints searching through people's clothes. Then suddenly, the TV changes and starts to feature these Fatah guys in West Bank, wearing their military uniforms also holding AK's and assorted arms looking around frantically.

So I began to think. The Middle East certainly has had a long and cruel history starting off hundreds of years back. Fast forward to the present, it is still ongoing but the target has changed from their "arch enemy" Israel towards themselves... In the past few weeks, statistics estimate (I dare say conservatively) 110 dead and much more wounded in the fight between Hamas and Fatah.

Now looking at Lebanon and their crisis with Syria... Another MP and useful life gone and it looks like there's gonna be a tit for tat revenge killings. Then we have Iraq and Afghanistan - God, I have no idea what the heck is going on but all I know is that more people are going to die.

The current Middle East situation reminds me very much of the Russian and especially the Chinese civil wars. Back in the 1930's, on one hand, we have the Communists fighting to try and liberate the Chinese from the Japanese and on the other, we have the Kuomintang fighting the Communists while also trying to "fight" the Japanese. Now I know this may be a biased point of view but it is what I believe after reading much history books. But the point is that in both wars, we had foreign powers intervening and supporting one group and this is exactly whats happening with Fatah and Hamas.

I mean for fucks sake, these two groups are fanatical enough already without the US, Russians and other Arab nations stepping in and adding more fuel to the situation. I mean I totally appreciate the soldiers for what they do (the ultimate sacrifice - Salute!) but the political agenda behind them is what I really fear. As for the groups themselves, I mean come on, you religious zealots, no matter how much crazy shit you guys can come up with, what do you ultimately want? Land for your people? Food? Security? For God's sake, "destroying" Israel is not going to bring you either and declaring Jihad on everything you see is not either (nor is killing your brothers in arms). The only solution forward is to negotiate. I know this sounds easy from my point of view but what other solution is there? I guess only time will start this process and meanwhile, I only fear for the innocent men, woman and children standing in the lines of fire... More so, I pity the "freedom fighters"...

The Chinese Civil War ended after 23 years with millions dead... My heart truly pains at this figure and thinking of the current crises in the Middle East, my heart pains even more. I can only hope for these crises to end earlier so that the innocents will be able to enjoy their lives... My heartfelt prayers and wishes are with those in distress...

Blogging and Rationalisation - A Defense Mechanism?

2007-06-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

After posting my article on "Reality" yesterday, I went on to do a bit more research on the topic of "thinking" and I stumbled across this article on Wikipedia: Defense Mechanism that lists a number of defense concepts by the well known "father of psychoanalysis" Sigmund Freud.

It's certainly a good read and I soon got to parts called intellectualization and rationalisation. Putting it simply, intellectualization is described as follows:

Intellectualization is a 'flight into reason', where the person avoids uncomfortable emotions by focusing on facts and logic. The situation is treated as an interesting problem that engages the person on a rational basis, whilst the emotional aspects are completely ignored as being irrelevant.

And the method we do this is through rationalisation which is as follows:

Rationalization is the process of constructing a logical justification for a flawed decision, action or lack thereof that was originally arrived at through a different mental process.

The more I read, the more I realise how applicable it is to alot of my posts minus the total ignorance of my emotions of course. More so, it applies to a number of the "thinking" blogs out there doesn't it? We in our desire to ignore some of the painful emotions, tends to rationalise in order to escape the reality of our emotions no? How many blogs out there have you come across that you think follows this pattern (well, mine excluded haha)

Now I don't know alot about psychology, but I feel being able to at least rationalise is better than allowing the actual anxiety to come through. Of course, from these articles I also realise the foremost importance of allowing ones emotions to come through in order to move on. So I guess a conscious understanding of these principles is in fact useful for a person because once the person is able to acknowledge his or her emotions, he is able to then rationalise about how to move on.

Nonetheless, thinking is definitely interesting... It certainly allows us to discover more about ourselves and if you havn't realised already, I've added a Latin motto to my profile information:

Dubito ergo cogito; cogito ergo sum. I doubt therefore I think; I think therefore I am.

Reality - Harsh Or In Fact Enlightening?

2007-06-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Ahh, people, how are you all? I sincerely hope you are all doing fine and for those of you in distress whether mentally, spiritually or physically (and any other I missed), my heartfelt prayers are with you. In the past few weeks, I have been under an emotional cloud and what can I say, it was not something within my control and as much as I wanted to get out of it, I could not.

However, in the recent days, with the big burden of exams out of the way (well, still 1 more left called Entrepreneurship 300 but my internal marks are high enough not to worry), I am lifting in my spirits! This is a good thing and it simply reinforces what many people have told me: time is the best healer and while I knew this, I was simply unable to apply this knowledge. This just reminds me of how fragile our mind really is despite all the wonders it is capable of...

Anyway, today I just wanted to touch on the topic of reality and just how wonderful (and harsh...) it is. Please bear in mind that I am currently under the influence of some nice white wine and I might make less sense than usual :P

But reality, it is a wonderful thing isn't it? No matter how much our mind can theorise, rationalise or hypothesis the future, it is really the reality that cures our problems. We, in all our beliefs, want to do things our way and we all try very hard to make reality follow our own imagination or dreams... However, today I realised this only true to an extent, while we have the power to change many things, sometimes, putting it simply, we can not. In these scenarios, reality, whether you thought of this or not, guides us. In these scenarios, we simply can not change what is happening in reality and therefore we subconsciously let reality guide us instead...

Of course, reality is harsh and sometimes, for the lucky ones, we do consciously realise this fact and as much as we try to modify or even change reality, we are simply not capable of doing this. Yet reality is also a double edged sword because while harsh and painful it is, it really forces us to think even more and dream even more. This may not necessarily be about the same path we do want to take, but in fact about other paths we can take... It is this that is the essence of what I am trying to say.

Putting this in an analogy: For every coin we flip, there is a head and a tail. As much as we want it to be either a head or tail, reality in fact, controls this and sometimes, it will just not land on the side you want and there is simply nothing you can do to control this (well, unless you cheat but let's ignore this haha). However, the fact that it lands on the side you do not desire does not signify a bad thing, but in fact, it could be a blessing in disguise no? What I mean is why force yourself to a lie when the real truth lies ahead and it is in fact much, MUCH better? For those of us lucky ones, we often sees this and therefore allow reality take hold and thereby negating some of the damaging effects. But for the less luckier ones of us (or those who simply don't want to), reality is often harsh and painful when it confronts you.

Of course, this raises another question and that is what if the lie is in fact not a lie and can lead to something better than the "truth" that we think may exist further up the road? To this, I have no answer except stop pondering with your mind and allow reality to take hold. Think about the realistic future, not the future you think. Again, putting this is an analogy, let's look at a horoscope (Thanks to iGoogle) I saw today:

Give yourself time today to get lost in your dreams about where you want your life to take you. This isn't about idle daydreaming, yet there is no need to put additional pressure on yourself to make any of your ideas come true. Additionally, there is no reason to share your current plans with anyone. For now, just enjoy lolling in the possibilities that lie in front of you.

For me, this is not reality but in fact a cold reading. If any of you understand the Forer effect, you'll know that cold readings are extremely general and often "accurate" simply because our mind wants it to be. So, what I mean is that I consciously know this effect and thereby can disentangle myself (or so I hope...). However, I am still unconsciously subject to this effect and while as much as I don't want to place pressure on myself to make any of my ideas comes true, I look at the reality and the REAL future and when I do, I realise I can't do what the horoscope tells me, I must move on and move forward towards the real truth.

Ok, this has been another extremely long post and anyone who has followed this far, I thank you. If you have understood, even better because I hope realising this fact is indeed better than just simply generalising things with ideas such as "strong internal locus of control" because we aren't superman and sometimes, things are just the way they are.

On another note, I'd like to thank Jeff from Psychosomatic Wit for awarding me a "Thinking Blog Award". Firstly, I'd like to thank my mum and dad for all their support these years *wipes tears*, without them, I would have been born into this world. Secondly, I'd like to thank all my readers, without you guys, I'd not have gotten any views. Thirdly, I'd like to thank my friends, the Grey Aliens, if not for their abduction of me all those years ago, I'd still have been living in a rubbish dump. Finally, I'd like to thank ummm, myself for being able to talk so much. Thank you, thank you, I love you all! *kisses and waves* :P

As for my own awards, please follow my blog carefully and during the holidays, I intend to broaden my horizon and vote my own top 5 and believe me, I'll be very selective and only the best will get in.

P.S. The Aliens didn't abduct me.. and thanks Jeff, I appreciate it. It is a surprise because I didn't think my thoughts was that good but I'll work hard to continue the mass exodus of my thoughts. I want to add more analogies to clarify my future cognitive processes to everyone so you all can have an even better time reading!

Back to my wine, and oh, enjoy life ladies and gentlemen.

How Much Heart Should You Put In?

2007-06-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

Greetings.

This is my final post before I start my first exam in about 16 hours times. Wish me luck.

I want to have a look at a question and that is: Just how much heart a person should put into a friendship or relationship?

So let's begin. It would be fair to say that the amount of heart a person place in any friendship or relationship would depend on how well that person understand and trust the person they're placing their heart with. This is a linear relationship - so the greater the trust and understanding, the greater amount of heart and vice versa. In theory, this sounds very well and good. However, we must understand that a friendship or a relationship really begins because both people trust and understand each other and therefore in reality, the amount of heart placed in each case are pretty high - unless both sides recognise the fact that they're just using each other but let's dismiss this third scenario.

At this point, we now must ask one a critical question: Should we place such a high level of heart in the friendship or relationship?

What I mean is that the only thing preventing a person from being heartbroken is really how well the opposite side can take care of your heart. To illustrate what I mean, I will take myself as an example. I pride myself on my high moral values and beliefs. As a result, if I believe a person is worthy of my trust and friendship or relationship, I will put pretty much 100% of my heart into it without a doubt. However, not everyone is like me and while I do trust the opposite side, there is absolutely no guarantee they will not break my heart/let me down. So pretty much this comes down to my critical question: Should we place such a high level of heart?

At this point, it'll be fair to say NO because there is nothing to prevent you from being heartbroken/let down etc except the opposite side.

So we have a dilemma, or reached a crossroad if you like. On one hand, we want to give alot of heart but on another, for the lack of guarantee of that person's values and beliefs, we shouldn't.

So what the heck should we do?

Well, different people will have different answers for this because the amount/level of heart break they have experienced vary - some have been hurt deeply while others have not been hurt at all and will have the 100% heart formula.

1) Some will have the following formulas I believe:

90-95% Defense - 10-5% Heart.

2) Some will have an even more powerful formula which is as follows:

"Fuck you, you ain't getting any of my heart. I am gonna play you so hard and so high so when you fall, you'll experience the same amount of fucking pain I felt you fucking asshole!@#"

3) Some have a combination of both:

"I'll give you some heart just to entice you and see how well you can capture it and treat it. I have been hurt to an extent where I will still give out but it'll be primarily to play you and on the first sign of danger, I'll take it back and hurt you!"

So, it is quite crazy isn't it? Everything just depends on the person you're giving your heart to.... If you have managed to read what I have written and understood, I congratulate you! And if you have done so, you'll want to know my answer to this too.

Me? I feel it is good to take things slowly. Don't give out all your heart but instead test the person you will be giving it to. But don't take it back just because you think it's getting dangerous as you may interpret it wrongly, ask or probe why instead. More importantly, don't be number 1, 2 or 3 because you could have interpret it wrong and seriously damage a true friendship/relationship not to mention the person... But importantly, don't be afraid to give your heart because just sometimes, in a rare twist of fate, you'll just meet a person like me who will treasure, protect and stand by it until the end of time. They say action speaks louder than words, so as time pass by, their actions will show you their true self.

Don't be afraid to communicate because misunderstandings will arise otherwise. Don't be afraid to laugh because life is too short to be so serious. And most importantly don't be afraid to give it another chance because... well... fate has its twists.

One sometimes know it's better to take a less foolhardy approach but sometimes, one simply can't take another other way. I now realise how foolish it is to think you can lock your heart up and stop it from being hurt because you can't.

So we arrive at a conclusion - another attempt at rationalising everything. However, I felt this piece of work is perhaps better than my previous one... Well, sleeping time.

A New Day

2007-06-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

As expected, thanks and by my words I will stand. It's enough and here's to friendship. Best wishes and good luck.

On a lighter note, I'd just want to post some statistics I had seen from my loggers...
My blog seems to have gotten hits from around the world from places such as Americas, Europe, Oceania and Europe. The average time is 2 mins with a fairly decent bounce rate. But what I am curious about is why no one leave comments.

Cammon people, it's not that hard is it? If you have spent 2 mins of your life reading the stuff I write, might as well let me know what you think :)

Once exams finish, I'll devote a bit more time to brushing up the blog. If anyone who accidentally stumble across my little world, please, leave a comment and let me know your blog. I would like to pay a visit and exchange views.

So here's to a new day and a brighter future everyone! And best luck to students around the world for your exams! Just remember, there will be a life after exams, don't do something foolish... like jump off a building...

A Game

2007-06-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

Deep into the night, I sit by the window and reflect. It's dark out there and there is a fine mist coating the glass. As I look towards the sky, I see no stars, only dark clouds hiding the moon. So I ponder, things in the past, things in the present and things in the future... So I ponder life and its dilemmas.

After much thought, I came up with the following conclusion in the events gone by and events that may come:

Everything is just a game. You can play the game, let the game play you or you can end the fucking game.

Sometimes you can't end the game nor do you want to, doing so is perhaps sad and wasteful... But if you can't play the game anymore, you'll have to end it and play another one... perhaps, and just perhaps, the new one will be a better one.

A saying comes to mind: "If the old won't go, the new won't come". This is exactly my view.

But what if you feel current game is the best one for you and ending the game is simply a big shame? - you just feel the game has so much potential. Alas... but sometimes, the game is just unplayable, things just impede successful game play, often the key factors.

Take whatever I say in whatever context it may be. I just hope you understand what I say. If the game is unplayable, don't continue as it'll be bring more pain and trouble for you. Don't believe me, just do it, I'll love to see how far you can go and maybe, just maybe you'll prove me wrong. But if you don't want to test my theory, then end it for a new game will arise. But what if it don't? Yep, complex isn't it.

Hahaha... Sudden rush of de ja vu... Damn, this is scary. Ok, ponder my view and best wishes to whatever game you play. You play it and win, you let it play you and suffer or you end it and find something better to play - Whatever happens, do it honestly, ethically and persistently and you won't regret it because regret... it will hurt you deeply and in hindsight, you will sadden at what a beautiful and wonderful game it could have become. You'll wonder why - But there won't be an answer for you.

Sometimes, I pity myself for being able to rationalise about everything... If only those rationalised "theories" can be more applicable to me... Perhaps as one matures, one will look at things in life as something more of a "game" but for a lack of knowledge, experience and wisedom, it will have to suffice. One look forward to a journey of self discovery.

Game over.

Responses To My Part 1 Theory

2007-06-07T01:58:00.001+08:00

Yo.

After reading responses from a range of people, I can seem to collate them into one single category and that is "Relationships can not be dissected and placed in a theoretical framework"

Some people were nice like zhu and Amelia and my friends who agreed with my point of view while others decided to be honest with me and let me know their own opinions. I totally appreciate them.

One response was as follows:

but you didn't emphasis how important is "being able to talk and make each other laugh" point. feeling may comes and go but able to comprehend to each others especially in daily lives are actually more important than being "there only for the important times" although the "crucial times" factors are also important. and you cant just analyze everything so detail be 4 getting into a relationship. having said tat i did not mean know nothing bout tat person. its the "finding out"part tat makes relationship interesting no?
(Edited for quality purposes)

So basically, I get the message ladies. I outlined them below for your amusement:

You can't theorise relationships cause it won't work. There is no right or wrong. You suck and have no idea what you're talking about. You're full of shit. You're valid to an extent, after that you're talking shit. Go to hell you loser.

What can I say? It is interesting.

I am not going to defend my model, it's there to be critiqued. It's not something so holistic it has to be right and I am not saying that. I acknowledge 100% that there will be factors in a relationship that will not be covered by this "model". Likewise, I acknowledge that the model is simply too technical and "rational". Also this model is seemed to be based more on the initial phase of a relationship than the actual working phase. I guess you can see it as the foundation necessary for a successful relationship. But let me say one thing:

The core of your relationship probably involve an implementation of this model in some way that is applicable to your own lives, particular the first two criteria. Furthermore, if you have a relationship that has failed, it probably came about as a result of a lack of the factors.

If you feel this is wrong, prove me so. What makes your relationship so unique? Does it have a third or fourth or even fifth core criteria? Or does it not even need the first two criteria?

P.S. I stand by the core of my argument but I acknowledge its deficiencies. Likewise, I look forward being humiliated by others and myself. I look forward reading this post in 5 years time or maybe sooner... when my heart is broken... drunk as well... thinking why... ^_^

P.S.S. I respect women for who they are totally. Without you, there wouldn't be me. Apologies flies out to those I may have offended. Just relax, it's not a big deal. Look, I drew my model in paint...

I'm Sorry Princess.

Factors Needed For Successful Relationships - Part One (1)

2007-06-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

The topic of this post is going to a bit complex for you readers. It's going to be about woman. Yep, the big enigma topic of woman. Recently, I've been pondering about this topic and after analysing conversations from several specimens (sorry ladies, for a lack of better words, I am forced to use specimen ^_^), I've come to a general understanding of two things: (1) What is needed for success in a relationship and (2) Why relationships fail. This post will be divided into two parts with this article being Part 1 and the next being Part 2. Have a read and let me know what you think!

So for ultimate success, the following three categories must be met in order (Especially the first 2, these two are essential):

1) Feelings for each other.

This goes without saying, no matter how hard a guy tries, unless there is true feelings of love between the two people, the relationship may proceed but will be doomed to failure.

2) One party (guy or girl - depending on who chased who I guess) who has a very strong understanding of the strengths and weaknesses of them self AND the opposite sex.

To explain, I'll take create an example, I'll be the guy. We will also be working under the hypothesis that criterion 1 has been met as well. So what this means is that I must have a strong and deep understanding of the good points of the girl and her flaws. Moreover, I need to understand what my own good points are and what my flaws are. This way, if anything the girl does ever touch my flaw, I'll be able to sidestep it and avoid any major confrontation. Likewise, I'll be able avoid inflaming the girl if I understand what her flaws are. Furthermore, I'll be able to utilise my strengths to address the want and needs of the girl.

Of course at this point, you might be wondering something and that is one party may not be sufficient for ultimate success and I totally agree with your point. Deep understanding from one part does only so much and may wear out that person. But, if the feelings exist, the side that lacks the understanding may eventually develop this skill and therefore lead to success in long term. For the sake of this post, I'll just use this "One Party Criterion".

This reminds me of a famous quote in the book "The Art of War": IF you know yourself and your enemy, for every hundred battles fought, you will WIN every hundred!

Likewise, it's common knowledge for relationships to succeed, both parties must contribute 100%: I am not reiterating this, I am just trying to state the more specifics.

Now, there is many other factors out there that may influence the success of any relationship but these two are the critical ones. However, I will list the some I feel that is important:

3) The X-Factors

Religion - Sometimes religions clash but I don't think this is true in a majority of the cases. This is not a major impediment.

Family Values - This is a big one. The power of families are recognised throughout the world particularly in conservative cultures. Some families want "good kids" for their son or daughter, others don't want certain races. Some want them to same religion. Basically, if the family values clash with certain traits of either party, it can cause trouble. But in 21st century, we understand marriage is a person's biggest thing in their life so families tend to involve themself less and less unless the guy/girl is a hopeless person with no charm or future prospects...

Personalities - According to Myer and Briggs, there is 16 types of personalities and each often have their own strengths and weaknesses. This goes hand in hand with criterion 2 listed previously - a lack of understanding about your partner's personality will lead to failure. If you know whether their personality suit you, then you are more likely to keep it going or cut it off. Any incorrect choice will fuck (pardon the language) you up.

Intellect - It's simple. Either the girl can't keep up or the guy can't keep up. One side gets bored and fed up and just go find someone more interesting and someone who can keep up.

Inability to Commit (Goes hand in hand with lack of loyalty) - This is hard to explain as to why. People I've interviewed are simply unable to answer this question. Guys and girls just seem to see it as something deeply inherent. I feel this is something to do with feelings. Putting it simply, criterion 1 (feelings) are just not deep enough and the attraction is simply infatuation, not love.

Loss of Interest - This can happen due to work, friends and family commitments. Distractions lead one and another to other directions and someone else.

Poor Communication - Goes without saying.

Trust & Honesty - As suggested by a few, these two must be in place. Jealousy is a curse they say and lies will be the end of you.

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OK, let's wrap it up for now. I hope you understand what I mean and that for any relationship to work, the top 2 criteria (feelings of love & deep understanding by at least one party of another).

The X-Factors will be external and internal forces that will impact upon the two criteria. The following diagram illustrates what I mean.

Sorry for the drawing haha. It's late so I'll leave it to everyone to ponder what I've written.

Please leave a comment on whether you think I'm right or wrong and more importantly why. Your comments will be valuable for my future research into the enigma of woman!

What Kind of Atheist Are You?

2007-06-05T03:48:00.000+08:00

Recently, I found an interesting quiz from the The Atheist Diaries.

Let's not get touchy now, I have absolutely nothing against religion and I believe in fact religion is needed to keep our world from going insane. Different people have different views and I respect yours so I hope you will respect mine.

Anyway, after doing this test, I ended up being a Agnostic Atheist haha. Look below for what it is. Anyway, if you are interested, do a test and have some fun. Leave a comment about what you scored!

However, you should note this interesting article about the Forer effect. The Forer effect also known as subjective evaluation shows that people tend to accept generalised descriptions of their personalities without realising that the same evaluation could apply to nearly anyone else, because people want the results to be true. This experiment is frequently cited as criticisms of other personality tests, like the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator . This Forer effect applies to astrological readings like clairvoyance and tarot so just be careful of what you see because it's not necessarily true. In fact, it can negatively impact your own lives.

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You scored as Agnostic, Agnostics consider the possibility that they may be wrong about God's existence, no matter which side of the fence they stand on. Always willing to objectively evaluate the most ridiculous proof, nevertheless, these guys are skeptics of the Nth degree.

Agnostic

75%

Apathetic Atheist

58%

Scientific Atheist

50%

Spiritual Atheist

50%

Militant Atheist

33%

Theist

33%

Angry Atheist

33%

What kind of atheist are you?
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Good Music = Good Life

2007-06-03T16:31:00.000+08:00

Greetings. For many, it's that time of the year again, yes, the final exams for Semester 1 of University. Especially if you are in Australia. Now this post is not going to be about how to revise for your exams even though I have established my own, unique methods and will likely to share it with everyone in the near future.

This post gonna be about good music. In today's life, I feel good music is essential. In the past, I've never really got into it but somehow it just hit me what a fool I have been and what I have been missing out. Of course, if you don't like music, then it's your own choice and any decision to change will also be your own. But for those who wants to see what songs and genres I recommend, read on.

The first is Cpop. Yep, good ol' modern Chinese music (中文歌曲). Now most of the people reading this blog would probably not understand the lyrics but I know there are people out there who like to listen to music even though they have absolutely no idea what the singer's going on about. If you are one of this types, then go to this website: Baidu. This site pretty much works like a search engine for popular Chinese songs and you can find almost anything on it. Of course, you don't understand Chinese and want more help, leave a comment. Beware, most involves romance/love and similar themes; I got bored of the speed/styles and you prob. will too.

The second is Kpop. Now I am not Korean so I have no idea what the singer's on about in this case but hey, they sound good lol. If you want a good place to download some of these songs (in English too!) then, here's a good place: Bww2. Sign up and download away!

The third is Jpop, for more information, see above.

The fourth is one of my favorites and that is hip hop. Favorite artist is the infamous Tupac (2pac, 2 pac - which one you prefer). Forget the history and the west coast/east coast stuff, enjoy the damn music. His songs at their best outclasses everything in the modern rap/g.rap/hip hop scene. You have your views and I have mine; this is mine.

I'll list ten of my favorites (Not necessarily in that order):

Dear Mama
Changes
I Ain't Mad At Cha
California Love (feat. Dr. Dre)
Fuck The World
Hail Mary
Unconditional Love
God Bless the Dead
To Live And Die In L.A.
Thugz Mansion

Top singer. Good place to download his songs is Limewire. Please note: I do not support music piracy, download the songs at your own peril and for review purposes only. If you can, please support the artists - they need to eat too. Share where possible.

A few other genres like rock (emo w/e), heavy metal etc I just don't like. It's impossible to understand what they're saying, the only thing you hear half the times is drums and banging. Of course, good bands and I don't deny that.

So these are some of my favorites, but I also recommend some individual songs such as Don't Worry Be Happy (Bobby McFerrin - Amazing Voice), I'm All Outta Love (Air Supply), You're Still The One (Shania Twain). There is simply too much to point out, these are just some of the ones I found that I enjoyed.

So, I have shared mine music. But I am more interested in what you like? I'm always looking to broaden my music horizons so please feel totally free to leave a comment about your recommendations.

"Add To Google" Button Problem

2007-06-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

OK. This is crazy shit.

See the button above? Well, if you use the HTML code from Google's site, the link that leads to the image is as follow:

http://buttons.googlesyndication.com/fusion/add.gif

Except when you paste in the HTML code, it doesn't bring up the goddamn image. I just don't understand why. It seems that Blogger doesn't accept the URL. So, I had to substitute the following URL instead:

http://www.google.com/intl/zh-cn/webmasters/add-to-google-plus.gif

Hopefully it'll stay. If anyone else is having this kind of trouble, the solution is in changing the image URL. Host it somewhere else or use the link I used.

I had a major headache finding the problem since I am not very well versed in HTML (yeah, it's simple but I'm coding illiterate).

Update: For the fear of Google changing their site link, I have personally hosted the picture. Should be a long stay now...

Miss Universe 2007 - A Critique

2007-05-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

Gentlemen, read on. Ladies, do so at your peril.

As you will probably have heard, Miss Japan (Riyo Mori) have won the Miss Universe 2007. If you don't know what Miss Universe is, please click here. According to statistics, this win for Japan is only its second in the Miss Universe history, with the last being Akiko Kojimain 1959. Before anything, let me post some personal info. about our dear Riyo. According to her blog, she is 19 years old (But the popular belief is that she is 20... You decide.). Riyo was born in Aoi-ku, Shizuoka (静岡市) the capital city of Shizuoka Prefecture, Japan (For those of you who don't know where this is, it's a village near Mt. Fuji). She is 1.75m in height and have brown eyes and black (raven if you like) hair.

So, firstly, congratulations. Japanese girls are always very nice, one can not deny that. To do so is a lie. The following pictures reinforce what I mean.

Yep, an amazing woman. Pretty face, superb body and from her interview on the Miss Universe website, an absolutely enchanting personality.

With the compliments out of the way, lets have a look at why she won. According to popular beliefs, her commanding confidence in herself, her ability to outdance the competition as well as her well-proportioned figure
(some feel it suits the

western taste) allowed her to gain the US$250,000 (€186,000) tiara. Whatever, the reason, she won, she came on top and she deserves it from what I have seen and it will not be this that I am about to question.

What I want to say is that, out of the final 5, Miss Korea seems to be more attractive don't you think? She is Korean (ahem -_^) , has a fabulous smile and a very busty (ahem x2) figure. Don't believe me? Have a look at the following video. Make sure you compare the figure of Miss Korea with that of Miss Japan; to me, it seems Miss Japan is almost anorexic...

Of course, that is my view - maybe it's because the video is poor quality and I am just a racist bastard who have no taste, but whatever the reason, my view stands. Others believe strongly in this as well (Have a look here: Miss Universe LIVE Coverage).

Some pictures of Miss Korea (Lee Honey) are as follows:

So, according to Wikipedia, Miss Lee is 24 years old, also 1.75m in height with brown eyes and black (raven...) hair. Amazingly, she was also Miss Universe 2006... Damn, what a shame, she should have won!! Maybe it's just me, but I just feel she looks so much better than Miss Japan im many ways - Her face, her smile, her vivacious body and her pose. She just hold herself right. I am trying to find a better picture that can illustrate the beauty I feel though its hard with all these porn pics turning up in Google Images (argh).

Her face doesn't show up and that's what I wanted to show you... But go here and have a look. Amazing beauty...

Anyway, I know alot of people feels the same way I do about this final result but hey, let's recognise the fact that these girls are beauties in their own right so lets just enjoy the beauties this wonderful world has decided to bestow upon us! Again, it could be me, I just prefer more lady like women than those younger, modern types... Brings about a sense of respectability I feel.

On another note, Miss China was fucked with a capital F. No seriously, I vehemently disagree with the choice of candidate. Here's a little photo I plucked from Miss Universe's website:

Ummm, no. No, no, no... This is wrong. Out of 1,321,851,888 people in China of whom 460,596,384 is between the ages 15-64, this was the best they came up with? As a person who lived half of his life on mainland China, I am extremely ashamed. For all the beauties that still reside in China, I apologise on behalf of the selectors; they are a bunch of dumb asses who probably wouldn't recognise beauty if it bit them on their ass.

As a 19 year old male, I know there is more beautiful Chinese girls out there. Next time, for the dumb selectors out there, be free, be wild and bring some damned beauties out! I demand beauties not Miss Congenialities. I know the Chinese can beat any of the other races in terms of ladies if the selectors try hard enough. I mean seriously, this is pathetic!! Apologies to our friend Zhang Ning Ning here (Miss China 2007), you are still beautiful and if given the chance, I will

still befriend you (ahem x3 )

Ok. It's been a long post so let's wrap it up. In general, Miss Universe 2007 has been an amusing one and there has been lots and lots of ladies I would like to have fun with. One thing that I have come to realise is that gentlemen, do not despair, there is plenty of fish in the sea. If one escapes, another one will come. But you must be thinking, "I don't want another one, I want that one!". If so, let me say, you're screwed. Haha, no, I don't know, just have fun!!!

A Life Gone By...

2007-05-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Mmmm today's a good day. Why? Uni's finished for another semester and so with that, another half year of my life that has gone by...

It's been a kinda nostalgic semester... As I was sitting on the bus the other day, we stopped on a red light next to a huge, green oval. Yet as I gazed out the window, I saw trees with big maple like leaves slowly withering and turning yellow... So as the bus moved on, I began to think;

"Shan, you've come a long way since China, a very long way indeed. From a simple, conservative and crazy child with plenty of friends and fun times, you've pretty much grown up into a lonely, bored though still as crazy young adult, with less friends and even less fun times. But Australia has been very good to you, people who knew you then would definitely be amazed at how much you have changed. People who know you now would have never understood nor picture what you were like before."

Haha, life is interesting for sure, playing these tricks on a person, what would I have become without that twist of fate? What would I have been doing today? I'll never forget who I am or where I came from, it is simply impossible.

So what is it I'm trying to say? Personally, I don't really know. This post was originally going to be something philosophical about this "learning organisation" crap I learn today, somehow it turned into the reminiscent post about my past and present. I guess you can take away something valuable and that is to treasure your life wherever you are living and make the best of what you have. To succeed in life is not important as it is to enjoy it and live happily. I understand success is not mutually exclusive with happy living but you still can live happily without being a success. Just don't lose sight of what you desire.

It's being a long time indeed... People treasure your lives in Australia, most of you wouldn't know what it is really like otherwise despite the media. When you know what its like in other places, you'll know what I'm talking about.

Treasure your lives, treasure your memories, treasure your loved ones and most importantly, be happy. Life's too short to worry sometimes...

Meanwhile, enjoy this little video. Hope it'll allow you to remember to smile truthfully once in a little...

Gay Pub Bans Heterosexuals - Fair or Nay?

2007-05-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

OK, I've been thinking about this little issue when I saw it on the news a while back but forgot about it. Since I've been duely prompted, let's raise it up and that is the recent banning of heterosexual males from a gay pub.

Wanna look at have a look at the article? View it here.

So I mean what the fuck... Homosexuals go around having their worldwide "gay freedom" parades and abusing us heterosexuals for being discriminative of their sexual orientation. So now they're gonna discriminate against us? This is kinda hypocritical isn't it?

I have nothing against gay people, the institutionalisation of homosexuality in the 21st is inevitable and so it should be as the human race reaches a more spiritual stage of their evolution.

But you should do what you preach and what you preach is freedom and equality not secessionism. At this rate, you'll not only threaten your very movement but also increase the antagonism between the heterosexuals and homosexuals. I guess the final word here is be careful of what you wish for. It may not be what you truly desire...

This is my view, if anyone feels like to say something different, go ahead. If not, well, I think my reasoning is pretty logical.

You're Still The One

2007-05-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

Just a follow up on my previous blog "Still Pondering.."

Remember the song I recommended? You're Still The One by Shania Twain? Well, I found this good video on Youtube sang by this girl called miaarose. You know, the "lonelygirl15 no.2". Whatever the truth be, she's still an amazing singer and it touches the heart much more than those modern, studio touched up versions.

Go on, have a listen (Note: 1:28-1:31) - Let the music take your mind...

Cool or Loser?

2007-05-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

OK, here's an interesting issue I think we should have a good look at. What is it? It is "Who is cool and who is a loser?". People today use these words so indiscriminately without truly understanding the implications of them. Let's start by defining each word:

Cool = Fashionable and attractive at the time; often skilled or socially adept; "he's a cool dude"; "that's cool"; "Mary's dress is really cool"; "it's not cool to arrive at a party too early"

Loser = One that fails to win: the losers of the game. One who takes loss in a specified way: a graceful loser; a poor loser. One that fails consistently, especially a person with bad luck or poor skills: "losers at home seeking wealth and glory in undeveloped countries" Arthur M. Schlesinger, J One that is bad in quality: That book is a real loser.

OK, so a cool person is one who's supposedly capable socially and worldly wise wise while a loser is someone who is pretty much the reverse. To me, I'll agree with these classifications if we are living a perfect world that does not change. However, as you'll know, the world we live in is not perfect (as far as to the extent of my knowledge) and no one is perfect and that the only constant is change. So with these factors in mind, we will analyze the words cool and loser.

So lets hypothesize, a stereotypical cool person would be someone who appears to others as a good communicator who makes sense and is humorous in his words, someone who has a good fashion sense, someone who has friends and someone who is good looking. OK, so that's it? That person is cool? What about his education? His true temperament? His ability to execute tasks that has real bearings to life? His ability to work hard? His current situation? Moreover, what will the person change into in anther 10 years? Where will he be? What will he be doing? Will the person with his "cool" stuff a contributing member of society? or just another middle aged derelict with no future? Now you see, one does not know the answers to these, heck Bill Gates could have been classified as a loser when he was young but look at him now, I don't really think (unless you're abnormal in the head) he's a loser. You see, one can classify someone as cool or a loser at the current situation but like everything, looking further can truly allow you to see whether he is in fact what you believe or rather, the exact opposite.

In other words, don't use these two terms so easily, it can be used for fun but treat others the way you want to be treated. Besides, most people have no idea what these two terms mean and just look at the surface such as how they look. SO whats the messages I'm trying to communicate?

Don't judge a book by it's cover and Don't presume. You will be wrong.

First, understand what these terms mean by a stereotypical definition such as the ones provided in this blog then come to an appropriate and logical definition of your own. Only then will you be able to correctly judge a person as cool or a loser.

On the reverse, if someone who looks bad and really has no potential, the media definition will suffice haha. But hell, I believe everyone has potential (this is a lie...) and everyone can success.

There is a saying in China: The stupidest bird flies first. Meaning? The stupidest bird practise the hardest and will therefore success first.

So don't listen to what others say, they really have no idea. Be a strong bird and be the one to fly the highest!!

Still Pondering..

2007-05-24T04:02:00.000+08:00

It's 4am. Yet, I'm still awake thinking. Sometimes I wonder why I have been burdened with this ability to think deeply about every single issue - it really is troublesome...

What's on my mind? Just that everything seems to be a dilemma these days don't you think? It's just crazy: work, sleep and play just feels enough. A person needs, no, craves more than this to life.

You gotta enjoy it in a way that satisfies your own needs. A companion perhaps?...

Good song: You're Still The One - Shania Twain (Corny, but relaxing).

We'll move into the issue of cool and loser in the next one.

So You Think You're A Cool Asian - Think Again

2007-05-22T05:55:00.000+08:00

Recently, I've noticed quite a few Asians using the word "lah" at the end of their sentence... Their English sentence that is. I mean what the fuck, do those kids think they're cool or some shit 'cause they use that word?

Well, let me say, no, you're not cool by saying that, in fact, you sound like a fool. You wanna be a hardcore Asian? Then be normal, the real ones don't talk with stuff like that behind their sentences. They're coherent talkers who can speak fluently in English and Chinese without the need to integrate slangs from either language into another, trust me, I know. Get rid of it, you sound like a loser.

At this point, I'd like to also mention something else, that is, the difference of being "cool" and being a "loser". I've heard these terms used indiscriminately and it's just crazy. Just 'cause media define the stereotypes doesn't mean these stereotypes are right. I'll discuss this topic in my next post. It's time to sleep...

Finished!

2007-05-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

Ah, finally, the end of my DVD watching marathon. Shen Gui Ba Zhen Tu was an amazing series. More so perhaps the lovely women in it... Just amazing how some girls can come through the screen so amazingly...

It's true, it's true, we crave what we can't have yet when we have it, we begin to sight of what a precious gift we have.

Life's definitely a worthwhile experience...

Update: 11:48PM

Uhhh, found this interesting article recently:

What's a rebound boy? But holy shit, the insight provided was so clear. It always nice unexpected surprise can shock one into a different mode! What an amazing site lol!! Thanks!

Speechless...

2007-05-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, how should I say this... Ever met a girl that you just seem to connect really well with than any other in your life? Well, I feels like I have. Yet I don't know... There is just so much things I want to say to her at times yet I just don't how... What should I say? When should I say it?

There is just a fine line... You just don't know when to cross it or even if you should cross it. One false move and it can end in total awkwardness. It's true, fear does overwhelm desire even though the end result can be 101% worth the effort. But it just comes down to that line, crossing it can lead to the end of everything. Ahh the dilemmas faced by us humans, it's just crazy sometimes.

What to do, what to do... desire, fear, awkwardness, end... Success? So what is the key? Cross the barrier and success (or face failure), remain silent and wait for the opportunity (even though it may never come and you may regret not taking the initiative) or ignore (again, regret). Attack, Defend, Delay or Block - haha, it's crazy!

Time to let fate take me... Sometimes having a strong internal of locus of control is just as useful as having none. Ponder on that people.

A New Day

2007-05-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ah feeling fresh and awake today for it's a new day, after 16 hours of sleep, after 32 hours of non-sleep. It's pretty chilly atm brr.

I have a few random things on my afresh mind. The first is the crazy $33.5 million payment to the CEO of Macquarie Bank. I mean what the fuck (pardon the language)... Seriously, while I understand the importance of rewarding a top executive with good pay in order to keep up with the international standards but $33 mil? That's crazy, it's like winning a lotto 33 weeks of the year. It's damned more money an average can earn in his/her life. Let's say an average person earns $60,00 per year. If the guy starts earning that much at the age of 23 until he retires at 73, he'll only make $3 million, a mere tenth of that. Lets incorporate pay rises and exclude expenses and set the new wage at $150,000 - then a person will earn $7.5 mil, only 23% of that amount. So in other words, it's mind boggling. But hey, I support this, it means if you are capable, you still can earn big bucks in a company. But I think this is opens another thought and that is you can earn big money from your own businesses. Be successful and you still can earn a good fair, more comfortable that $150k a year though maybe not as much as $33mil in one year haha. But who knows! Remember the 30th US President Calvin Coolidge's famous words:

"Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan 'Press On' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race."

The second thing I was going to say I forgot. Maybe another day haha!

The third is these two songs called "Dear Mama" by Tupac and "Tell Me" by Diddy. Haha, two interesting sides isn't it? Go listen to them both, really good. But what I wanted to comment on is "Tell Me". The meaning behind the song is simply fantastic, it really shocked me since I can relate to it in a way. I just couldn't believe it. Feel like I am so much more to say but can't say it, just that I hope what I feel is true. But would be refreshing to really know. Meanwhile enjoy the clip of it here:

Tell Me lyrics

Now, it's time to go back to work. Work sucks.

P.S. Go check out this film Shen Gui Ba Zhen Tu (It's good)

Love, Fidelity and the Whole Crazy Thing..

2007-05-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

Ahh, so here I am again, ready to post away another blog. Life's so busy these days with assignments due so soon and exams coming up in a months time. Life's not fun.

But enough about that, let's move on to an issue that I recently began to think about as a result of this article: Wife can't get Kylie Minogue out of head. So it'll be pretty obvious what I am going to rant about and that's the issue of fidelity. Yes, you heard right, fidelity.

I have been thinking, it is just simply absurd and crazy this guy can betray her wife; here we have a woman who gave her destiny to you and yet you go about messing around with one of the worlds famous and sexy stars (not that I find her pretty, then again that is just my opinion). Whatever the truth is, the guys wife is due to have their first baby and he is not with her but rather somewhere in world doing god knows what. Granted he should have the freedom to do what he likes but the timing is simply not right and from the state of his wife, the real situation does NOT look right either.

This little 'current affair' is really just used to set general picture of what I am about to say. Men, you have an obligation to your girlfriend/wife. While the scenario of a a guy cheating on her girlfriend is less serious, it is still infidelity and in a way just as serious as a guy cheating on his wife. As I mentioned previously, a woman who agrees to be your girl/wife is giving a part of herself to you and in the case of marriage, her WHOLE FRIGGIN' DESTINY to you. So in other words, you have an obligation to give her your fidelity and not go around cheating or doing immoral things. The key word here is obligation and it's not a pedantic term. She is willing to give you her body and soul and you should at least give her your loyalty and be a man, yes, a man, not some cheater or loser.

Of course, what I have said applies totally to the reverse side of the coin. Girls/wives, you have an obligation to do the same. I simply find it most distasteful that girls these days seems to damned slutty (pardon my language for a lack of better words). Where is the innocence? Where is the damned purity?

Maybe the view I have expressed in this blog are a part of my own values, attitudes and beliefs but it is really also a moral issue isn't it? Putting it simply, people needs to have stronger morals and be more ethical in their view of life. I feel like there is a few more issues I could have addressed but the core views I have expressed quite clearly and I'll leave it for you all to have a think about.

Remember ladies and gents, a relationship can't be defined by a simple mathematical equation of 50-50 or 60-40, it needs 100% from each side. If someone is willing to give a part or whole of themselves to you, you need to recognize that and do the same. Be morally correct in your approach and even in failure, you'll not regret what you have done.

Until we meet again, au revoir

What's the Point of Life?

2007-05-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the delay in my posts, so damned busy with uni... and YouTube...

Tell you the truth, the life of an uni student is pretty shit, mind the language. Lectures, revision, assignments, work and the occasional bit of play but that's about it. Recently, I realised that I lacked freedom in what I do but more importantly, I lacked an interest in my life, an interest that I can pursue with some kind of fervor...

I came to realize this when I stumbled across a "tricking" video done by the group EMC Monkeys. This sport combines a range of arts such as martial arts, break dancing, gymnastics etc. Very aesthetically pleasing if choreographed well and done by pros like the monkeys. Another group to note is Team Ryouko especially their video done on wasaga beach (Go search for it on YouTube).

As one watches these videos, one begins to realize how free these people are, enjoying life to the fullest whilst doing what they love. It is true, there are things money can't buy and ultimately it's these things that makes life worthwhile.

Have to do research now but I'll leave you with a final thought that you can hopefully think about and maybe change your lifestyle.

The secret of life is to... live successfully and enjoy everything that you like!

Until next time.

Sun Tzu: The Art of War

2007-05-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

Today, I received a long sought after book, The Art of War from good ol' Amazon

The book is also known as Sun Zi Bing Fa or 孙子兵法 in Chinese. If you don't know what it is, I'll explain it to you. It is a famous military treatise written in the 6th century by a famous Chinese general called Sun Tzu or Sun Zi. It has 13 chapters devoted on explaining the "art" of conducting warfare. It is highly concise and remarkable in Chinese, though somewhat lacking in lustre when translated in English.

While it is hard to grasp, if you able to apply it to situations in your life, you'll find it very interesting. I have. So, this book hopefully will keep me entertained for some time to come. I recommend it to everyone. There is also another book called "Mastering the Art of War" by a number of ancient statesmen/generals geniuses such as the famous Zhuge Liang (诸葛亮). All these books can be purchased on Amazon quite easily with a very reasonable degree of value.

Until another day.

Self Discipline

2007-05-02T00:42:00.001+08:00

OK, today I am going to write about a very important topic, one that must have affected you sometime in your life. It is self discipline.

Ask anyone who knows that in order to succeed in life, you need self discipline when undertaking the many issues in life and that last minute rushes is not only unhealthy but very dangerous.

Me, right now, have no self discipline. I work to 11am, get home by 11:40am, shower and rest until 12:30am. I wake up next day sometimes at 1pm. I procrastinate, I eat, I watch DVD's - basically I do nothing useful until 9pm at night. So 8 hours that I could have used productively wasted. Even by 9pm, I have the same thought on my mind - oh, it's not much work, I can leave it a bit later and then that tingling relaxed feeling comes through that pushes you to do nothing for another hour. Suddenly, you realize it's 11pm, time for bed. So, that is my schedule for days I am free, even during my study periods ( 2 WHOLE WEEKS!) when I KNOW I should be reading textbooks, summarizing and revising my lecture notes, completing exercises, researching and working on my massive assignments. It is really a lot of work and I know that I should be doing that but that addiction to procrastinating makes me do nothing.

Fast forward a bit, as I sit here writing this blog, I find myself again massively short of time when I made a new year resolution to force myself to work hard this semester, work-wise and uni-wise. Alas, I have two pieces of major assignments due in one week that I have not started... It's funny though, I spoke to a few people and they haven't started either hahaha. This is confusing me and making me think that it's not my schedule that's bad since this can't happen to everyone. But now I suddenly realise that it IS my schedule that's bad. People who haven't started their work is also severly lacking in self discipline and while this had no link to me, it means that I am too, lacking in self discipline and that we all have ended in this "running-out-of-time-shit-hole" hahaha...

So, today, I intend to seriously do something about this. I am nearly 20 and I have ultimate control over my life and since there is no one to guide me, I must discover for myself the pains of living as an adult and develop this thing called discipline. Without it, I don't ever think I'll be a successful person. And you know what that means, inability to treat my future wife as a Queen! This coupled with the fact that I want my parents to live in luxury will be the two major factors pushing me harder...

So, I have researched some articles that will guide me to waking earlier and developing self discipline. I have done research in this area before and I realised I need to develop a crucial plan for success. I will establish a weekly planner that outlines my major activites and focus all my willpower to carry out the required activites. This will cover work and study, and especially study since exams are a month to go...

Planning, time management, self control, will power and hard work will all be cornerstones in my new integrated plan to rid myself of this laziness, this addiction to procrastination and establish a new me, not the fake me that I have been using for the past 5 years.

It's 12:01 am and I felt like I have blown away some cobwebs and allowed my thoughts to come through clearly to you. So, watch me as I develop my inner power and self discipline and force myself to take more responsibility of myself.

So watch me, as I climb to new heights!

P.S. If you ever need help, leave a comment and I can tell you some of the steps I have used. It'll be very useful.

Love is War

2007-05-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

So, here I am, 1 in the morning, sitting in front of my computer writing this blog. The night is young and the wind is howling. Splatters of rain hits the window along with the wooing trees.

So what's on my mind today?

It's Love.

After pondering this age old concept, I came up with a little summary of my own :)

Love is like a war, full of complexities, traps and deceit. It takes courage, determination and very importantly luck for one to win. But the outcome will be worth the effort put in... Maybe in a way, the end justifies the means... The end of course will not always be to your favor but no one said war is easy. It's important to understand that in a war, things will not always go as planned so sometimes an external locus of control is good, that is, accept your destiny because the opposite result will be ... painful ...

Of course, try your best and if God's willing, happiness will be yours and I sincerely hope you make the most of your good fortune. If not, don't cry - stand up and maybe, just maybe, the Lady of Luck will smile on you one day.

At this point, I feel like YouTubing a bit before I sleep. I will leave you with two quotes to ponder upon:

1) Literal translation of an ancient Chinese proverb: Male chases female, every chase is a difficult one. Female chase male, every chase is an accurate one.

2) Time is the best healer.

So... enjoy life...

For you sad, "lost in love" kids out there...

2007-04-30T13:28:00.000+08:00

This blog is for you, the damned useless, modernised, brainwashed, yuppified and lovesick teenagers of the 21st Century.

The chances are you're a male (or female) teenager belonging to the age group of 16-23. Chances are also that you're going through adolescence and are currently / have:

1) Hopelessly in love (or so you think) with the "one"

2) Trying to find that elusive girl (or guy) whom you can breed with and live in your house with a white picket fence

3) Had your heart broken due to chasing after the "one" yet havn't learnt your lesson and still chasing

4) A range of the above

So what is my point?

My point is that you're gonna end up with your heart broken over and over whether you have the girl (or boy), when you find the girl (or boy) or when you find that "one" again.

So a simply paragraph of advice, courtesy of bash.org

Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken

So a cynical view maybe, but if you celibate, you won't be damaged so haha. Otherwise, the next time you're hurt, please blame yourself...

A New Beginning

2007-04-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my new blog. After years of standing on the sideline, I've decided I will partake in this new activity. Long time ago, I did something similar to blogging but did so on a personal website and while I found that troublesome, the new technologies has made blogging far more easier which somewhat explains my action.

Now with the introduction over and done with, maybe you should know a little about myself. I am 19, a student studying in commerce, majoring in human resource management and management at a "world class" University (according to university propaganda) in Western Australia. I decided to post this bit of personal information because I want you, my readers to have a more personal feel with what I write. Moreover, I intend to make blogging a new and long term hobby of mine and hopefully it'll drive me away from insanity haha.

I have a few blogs from another place that I will transfer over in the next few days so bear with me ^_^

A very important thing I want to note here is that I welcome all comments so please feel to post whatever you want as long as they are not rubbish (e.g. "Increase your penis size by 50%" - Thank you but no, I am happy with my sexuality... so far)

I also want to customize this blog a bit so if you have time, leave some suggestions. Meanwhile, stay tuned for next episode on A New Perspective: Advice for kids lost in love

Yours Truly.